The Greatest Showman

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Adam gradually became numb. m. The most economical mobile phone traffic, no advertising site.

He knew he had cancer, everything was so real, the pain of chemotherapy tormented his body all the time, the sensitivity of his bare head in the sea breeze in Seattle didn't help, he was no longer calm, no longer indifferent , No longer as if nothing happened, his world has been turned upside down, and he can no longer remain indifferent.

However, he could not feel any emotion. He's trying, he's trying, and getting nothing.

Kyle took advantage of his cancer to hook up with girls, he didn't feel it; mother's death-defying streak all the time, he didn't feel it; Rachel betrayed him and made out with other men, he didn't feel it; Rachel tried to sweetly excuse herself , Kyle condemned with indignation, the two quarreled, and he didn't feel it.

He was alone in the face of chemotherapy and cancer, walking alone and lonely in the big city, he didn't feel it; while walking the dog, a girl showed interest in him, but he didn't feel it; Kyle took him with him Going to the bar to ask a girl, chatting, drinking, rolling/sheets, he still doesn't feel it.

His weight was dropping, his body was protesting, his stomach was rejecting all food...he, didn't feel it.

The world of cancer and the real world have merged, and cancer is turning his life upside down, bit by bit, but he doesn't feel anything. He was trying to be angry, he was trying to be sad, he was trying to care, he was trying to be a part of the world, he was trying to reawaken his senses, he was trying to reconnect with life, and he failed.

He's going through it all, but he can't feel it, it's as if... it's as if all the changes brought about by cancer just came naturally into his life. All the mixed emotions slipped through his mind little by little, he clearly knew they existed, he knew that he should be angry, he should be lonely, he should be sad, he should be lonely, he should be in pain, he should be afraid, he should be afraid, but, No. He can't feel anything.

numbness.

This is how he feels.

Watching Adam sit quietly in the bus stop, waiting for the bus. Without Rachel's pick-up and drop-off, Kyle still has his own job, and Adam can only take the bus to and from. Tessa tasted a faint sadness.

With those thin shoulders, pale lips and confused eyes, cancer has become more real than ever before, there is no ups and downs of dog blood, there is no catharsis of howling, there is no self-pity sadness, and there is no strength to force a smile, just a numbness , like a hiker in the desolate autumn, walking alone in the mountains and mountains, the difficulties and obstacles extend under the feet, but the lonely and indifferent back outlines the grandeur and grandeur of the whole world.

Gently sticking out the tip of her tongue, Tessa tasted the taste of tears, but this time, her eyes were dry and there were no tears. The taste on the tip of the tongue goes deep into the heart.

Catherine saw Adam on the way home and forced Adam to get in the car and escort him home.

Looking at the car that looked like a garbage dump, a trace of speechlessness and disgust slipped in Adam's cold eyes. Catherine seemed to sense what Adam meant, and twitched the corners of her mouth awkwardly, "Sorry for such a mess, I'm not very good at sorting this out. thing."

"I can tell." Adam's head didn't move, but his eyes were slanted, not rolling his eyes, but creating the effect of rolling his eyes. The disgust was overflowing, and the corners of Tessa's mouth couldn't help but curl up again.

"If you need me to stop, or anything, let me know," Catherine said thoughtfully, "For example, chemotherapy..." Finally, Catherine simply stated her original intention, "If you feel nauseated, just say it. I'll stop."

"Okay. Thank you." Adam said hoarsely, but his neck still didn't turn, and he stared straight ahead.

The carriage was quiet again, and this strange silence had an absurd sense of joy. Adam's expressionless face and Catherine's rich expressions formed a sharp contrast.

"So you don't have a car?"

"No, I don't even have a driver's license."

"Oh? Why?"

"Because... um, it's too dangerous. This is probably the fifth leading cause of death?" Adam blinked and blinked again, still expressionless, "I guess it's just a little behind cancer." Still no expression.

Such a contrast is so cute that the entire screening hall burst into laughter. Tessa and Hope were no exception. But after laughing, the faint sadness and bitterness surged up again, and the bottom of my heart was empty and unfulfilled. In a trance, Tessa seemed to feel the same, deeply felt the numbness of Adam.

"But...what about the bus?" Catherine was still surprised. "Take the bus after chemotherapy?" This sounds really sad, what about the family? What about friends?

"Oh, yes." Adam seemed to react after realizing it at this time, "Usually Rachel comes to pick me up. But..." Adam paused for a moment, and there was a trace of thought in his eyes, as if thinking about this What does it mean, but he didn't think of a reason, and he came back to his senses, and then he said quickly, "But we broke up. She cheated."

Facts are just stating a fact.

Catherine was already stunned. While driving, she kept looking back at Adam with worry written on her face; but Adam was still calm, which made Catherine blink her eyes, full of question marks, "Adam, do you want to talk about it?" talk?"

Adam pursed the corners of his mouth and frowned.

Qing Yang, "Actually, we don't need it anymore. We just left the hospital, so there's no need to turn the carriage into a clinic. You're giving me a ride now like a friend."

"Yes, Adam." Catherine had no way to stop her worries, "If..."

Adam's voice rose slightly, "You know what we really need to talk about is that you have garbage on the ground!" Maybe, he still cares, deep down, those emotions and emotions are real, just himself Choose to forget and ignore. It's just that he doesn't want to talk now. "It doesn't make sense! I mean, you can at least put a garbage bag in the back seat."

"Adam, your girlfriend betrayed you." Catherine interjected, but then she saw Adam's turn of eyes. For the first time, Adam responded and made a move. Those calm eyes let her Dodging in a panic, "We don't have to talk about this, it's not necessary!"

Adam noticed Catherine's panic, and when he retracted his gaze, the corners of his mouth lifted up, and the numb and stiff brows gradually softened.

Catherine was a little embarrassed and a little jerky, and she tried to defuse it, so the words continued, "I just broke up with someone myself. It feels really bad."

"Really? Oh, sorry." Adam didn't expect such a development line.

"No, it's fine, it's fine. Because..." Catherine suddenly stopped and stood there for a long time, "We shouldn't be talking about this."

"why?"

"It's not appropriate to talk to you about my personal affairs. Because if you know about my personal problems, the relationship between doctor and patient is tricky." Katherine's explanation made Adam understand, but she still Can't help but add, "But I have to admit, I still check his Facebook every day to see if he's dating someone, which is so sad." As she spoke, Katherine frowned. He frowned, his face full of regret, "I shouldn't have said it, I shouldn't have said it."

The smile at the corner of Adam's mouth also rose high, and nodded vigorously, "Yes."

Awkward. "We should listen to the radio." Catherine turned on the radio, letting the sound buffer the awkward atmosphere between the two.

Adam turned his head and looked at Catherine quietly. There was not much expression on his face, but the gentleness after the laugh just remained, which sparsely settled between his brows, and his dark brown eyes had a little bit of light. But I couldn't tell whether it was the refraction of light and shadow outside the window, or something else.

"Stop," Adam said without warning.

"What's the matter, are you not feeling well?" Catherine panicked and immediately parked the car on the side of the road.

"I just..." Adam opened the car door, then cleaned up all the garbage under his feet, "I can't bear it any longer." Then he got out of the car with the garbage and walked towards the trash can next to him. .

"Are you serious?" Catherine's voice was distorted and panicked, and then trotted to catch up with Adam, "Adam, wait, wait, you don't have to, that's my dinner. That brown bag is me dinner."

The entire screening room burst into laughter. Tessa couldn't help hugging her stomach, watching Adam holding a large pile of garbage, and then Catherine pulled out a brown box from it, indicating that it was her dinner, All the audience couldn't stop laughing. Then the two started to clean up Katherine's car by the side of the road.

Simple conversation, it seems that there is no special content, but it makes people feel warm, faint warmth. The eye contact between eyebrows, the emotional exchange between words, watching, listening, and listening, smiles climbed the corners of every audience's mouth and brows, but they didn't notice it at all.

But Adam noticed. Emotions seem to be back, and life seems to be back.

Rachel came back in embarrassment. The setbacks of her career and the abandonment of the artist made her disheartened. She hoped to get back with Adam, and he asked her to get out of his house; Rachel kept one of her paintings at Adam's house and did not take it away. Named for him, he and Kyle smash eggs at the painting and burn it.

He joined Alan and Mickey, sat in the courtyard, and leisurely enjoyed the fairy life brought by a stick of /marijuana in the afternoon, and then complained about his work.

He bravely rejected his mother's excessive care and said that he could be strong; he opened his heart and tried to communicate with Katherine, and the psychological consultation finally began to bear fruit; he actively accepted chemotherapy and began to fight cancer.

However, all of this stopped when Mickey died. Mitch passed away, a cancer patient passed away, his chemo patient passed away.

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Adam sat on the spot, watching the news, and was stunned.

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