When You’re Gone

The night is still long, but Gu Hansheng knows that he can't sleep tonight.

He lay on the bed for a while, and heard his violent heartbeat slowly calm down, and the figure in his mind had slowly disappeared.

Gu Hansheng opened his eyes and stared at the dark ceiling.

It has been five years.

Time consumes people's will and spirit in this way.

He even felt that if another five years passed, would he even forget the appearance of A Shu.

Yes, this past five years, many people have forgotten her.

From time to time, his mother advised him to think about his future.

He is thirty-five this year.

Thirty-five years old, no wife, no children, not even the future.

Jing Yu Yu Shen Zhi Ji Shen Shiqing...They never mentioned anything related to A Shu in front of him, even any words that had something to do with her.

Sometimes when he woke up from a nightmare, he felt that he should have forgotten her.

But he couldn't bear to forget her every day.

Even if she couldn't remember her appearance clearly in his mind for a moment, Gu Hansheng would feel panic.

In his bedside table, he keeps a bottle of sleeping pills all year round.

Gu Hansheng thought, if one day he really couldn't even remember her appearance, it must be because she didn't want to wait for him. If so, he would go to see her.

At that time, he would not care about everything else.

If it is reported in the news that the chairman of a certain group committed suicide by swallowing medicine late at night, I am afraid everyone will find it funny and ridiculous.

But in fact, apart from a few friends around, who knows the truth?

They also don't need to know.

In fact, five years later, he has not felt much.

It seems to have become a habit.

Except for nightmares at night, in fact, he no longer thinks of her all the time like he did at the beginning. He works in the company, and he imagines that she is tired from shopping, and rides to the company downstairs and calls him to let her go down. Pick him up.

Several times, he ran down, facing the hall in a daze. There were all faces in the hall where people came and went, and she was alone.

When he looked down at the document, he would imagine that she was lying on the sofa not far from her, using a tablet to read TV series and reading fashion magazines, but when he looked up, the noisy sound of soap operas could not be heard in the quiet space, let alone The sound of pages turning.

Going out, the sofa area is empty, without her.

So at this time he thought again, would she sleep in the lounge?

Then he turned around and strode towards the lounge. The result was the same. The bedding on the bed was neat and the veil beside the bed was fluttering, but she was not there.

get off work.

He would think she was sitting on the carpet in the living room, with a lazy ball head, wearing a pair of silver-rimmed glasses, her hair falling into the neck, wearing a soft sweater, and bowing her head to dry the bouquet with the eucalyptus.

At this time, he would always speed up his pace and face the loneliness of the room when he returned home. He turned on the light and the room became brighter.

A huge sense of loneliness and powerlessness flooded him.

He looked outside at the darkening sky, and remembered that one night in the late summer, she was standing a few meters in front, under the bright light, she said that she wanted to go out.

Why did he refuse her at the time?

Oh, he told her that the night in Yucheng was cold in the late summer, so it is not suitable to go out for a walk, but to sleep in bed.

At that time, I only felt the pain deep into the limbs.

After a long time, he got used to it.

Even if she is not in this world, there is her everywhere, which will make him feel at ease.

Later, he didn't often think of her.

I didn't feel much about it. It was a bit sad when she thought that she would never be able to eat something so delicious when she was eating private food in a private restaurant. When she went out, it was sad to see that the flowers were all blooming and the trees were all green.

It’s like he saw a nice necklace in a magazine, thinking that he can’t buy it again to help her wear it on his neck. It’s a pity. He looked at the sun outside and felt that if she was still there, that day would be the same as the sun. warm.

It's also like that when he clicked on her WeChat later, the black-and-white profile picture was the one he had put on at the beginning, but he still felt empty when he saw it.

As long as he thinks that she will never be able to live this bland day or perhaps a trivial day, he will be sad.

But it doesn't matter, we will meet eventually.

After lying down for nearly an hour, feeling a little hungry, Gu Hansheng got up.

At two o'clock in the morning, it was quiet everywhere.

Just after Qingming, he went to the suburban cemetery today, in front of her grave.

He didn't bring anything. Later, he sat quietly in front of the grave for two hours, and didn't say anything to her. He thought, he could still think of her, that's enough.

She could never drink this year's new tea, nor could she see the flowers in spring, rain in summer, and fallen leaves in autumn. In fact, it didn't make much sense for him to talk to himself to the cold name on the tombstone.

Opening the refrigerator, he saw the youth group made of Eucalyptus.

In such a moment, Gu Hansheng stood still.

Some liquid hit the ground one by one.

Has A Shu eaten Youth League? Have you ever eaten the cakes that every family wants to eat during the Ching Ming season in their hometown of Eucalyptus?

After thinking about it this way, Gu Hansheng was no longer hungry.

He closed the refrigerator door and walked upstairs barefoot, ready to go to the study to find a movie to kill the next long time.

Until five o'clock in the morning.

He raised his head and saw the gray sky outside the window. There was still an hour before dawn. At this time, Gu Hansheng clearly remembered that Jing Yu said that he had found Mo Xiangsi. More than that, Mo Xiangsi gave him a daughter.

Four years old...

Gu Hansheng suddenly buried his face in his palm. If he and A Shu have a child, then the child should be four years old this year, right?

If he has a child, what name should he give him/her?

How to educate him/her.

Will his and A Shu’s children be a boy or a girl?

He is thirty-five years old this year, so he will give him all of his best, and in the future he will hand over the company to him, and then he will take A Shu to travel, wherever she goes, as long as she likes...

Gu Hansheng took a nap for an hour in the picture constructed in his mind. It was a rare dream in the past few years.

...

Budapest.

Liang Jiujiu's condition stabilized and she was sleeping in the ward.

Mo Xiangsi breathed a sigh of relief. She reached out her hand and heard the door opening. She turned her head and faced Shang Jingyu's hot eyes.

He cast his eyes on the little undulating mass of the hospital bed, his heart beating.

Mo Xiangsi tightened her brows, got up and walked towards him, blocking his vision at the same time.

The door opened, Jing Yu retracted his gaze, and followed Mo Xiangsi all the way out.

On the corridor.

He saw Mo Xiangsi leaning on the railing and lowering his head to play with the phone, her brows were still knotted, and she was thinking about how to prevaricate this matter with Liang Shu.

On April day, Mo Xiangsi was wearing a pair of black skinny jeans with a thin sling that exposed the navel. The waist was too thin, as if it could be cut off by a hand.

Jing Yu swallowed his saliva. He took off his coat and walked over to cover Mo Xiangsi's shoulder.

Mo Xiangsi bounced like an electric shock, and put the phone in his palm by the way, staring at him warily, "What are you doing?"

When his coat fell on the ground, Jing Yu bent down and picked it up. Compared with Mo Xiangsi, his behavior seemed a bit humble and mean.

But he is willing.

Jing Yu stared at her exposing area of ​​skin, feeling a little uncomfortable, and then thought that the foreigner had touched her waist just now, maybe... Thinking of this, the string in Jing Yu's mind gradually couldn't stretch. .

But Mo Xiangsi is full of aura now, she doesn't give him a good face, but he can't shake her face like that.

What if it suddenly disappears like it did five years ago?

Especially, he now has a lovely daughter.

Thinking of Jiujiu, Jing Yu's Adam's apple moved, stepped forward, a step closer to Mo Xiangsi, his voice was a little different from his own, and asked, "I don't know she can't eat ice cream."

Mo Xiangsi didn't lift her head either, "No blame you, don't get in the way of my eyes here, just stay where it's cool."

"..."

Jing Yu squeezed his hand, staring at Mo Xiangsi with greedy eyes, "Jiu Jiu, is it my daughter?"

He remembered that in the week before they separated five years ago, he and her had been tired of being together. There was no set, and they were directly put in it many times. She had never taken medicine, and the chance of pregnancy was still very high.

Calculating time, it happened to be about the same as Jiujiu.

Mo Xiangsi almost thought he had heard it wrong.

She turned off the phone, raised her chin with her hands on her chest and looked at him. Her red lips were slightly curved upwards. She sneered, "She told you her last name is Jing?"

Jing Yu didn't feel that Jiujiu didn't have any problems with a surname. After all, she gave birth to this child silently, and he had never participated in her growth. Thinking about it this way, Jing Yu felt a little guilty.

He looked at Mo Xiangsi with regret and distress, "I know you hate me. It's normal for a child not to follow my last name, but she is definitely my daughter."

"Your daughter? Are you dreaming." Mo Xiangsi patted his stretched hand.

But Jing Yu is just an expression that I don’t care if she is my daughter. He stretched out his hand again to reach for Mo Xiangsi's hand. Mo Xiangsi became impatient, stepped back and stared at him coldly, and his tone was frivolous and vicious, "You think you What is it in my Mo Xiangsi's heart? At best, I was your first second wife and third child. From you, I didn't make money or people. I still want to give birth to you. Are you dreaming?"

In the next second, Mo Xiangsi clapped his hands and said, "But, I won't mention the things that you were willing to do. Anyway, the two of us have nothing to do with each other."

Jing Yu's expression was a little bit painful, and he stared at her tightly.

It is rare for Mo Xiangsi to look at him like this. He tilted his head a little, curled a strand of hair around his index finger, and smiled heartlessly, "Don't look like I'm scumbag. I don't know you are married. I was wrong when I ran over to sleep with you, but then you knew that you had a wife, and you came to recruit me. It was you who acted. We are generally dark, so don't make you feel wronged."

"Also, I have never seen you before. I will not hold you accountable for beating my new boyfriend, but don't show up in front of me in the future," Mo Xiangsi finally let go of the strand of hair that was tortured by his fingers. The index finger pointed to the ward, "Also, she is not my daughter, let alone your daughter. Don't rush to be someone else's father."

Mo Xiangsi's mouth, someone who has no rank, can't say it.

Jing Yu didn't take advantage of Mo Xiangsi before, he relied on his own brute force.

The tone of these words is very unpleasant to hear now.

He twisted his eyebrows into Sichuan, "New boyfriend?"

Mo Xiangsi raised his eyebrows and said nothing.

Jing Yu took a step closer to her, clutching the big palm of her coat with extra force, "How many boyfriends have you had in these years?"

"Hmm..." Mo Xiangsi stretched out a finger and pressed it to his chest, and then pushed his whole person out. She was a little distressed, and she held her finger, "I'm sorry, I can't count it."

"How many of you have become your men?" Jing Yu continued to ask.

Mo Xiangsi frowned, squinted her eyes, and the expression on her face turned cold by the way. She didn't hesitate this time, she just replied with a cold voice: "I can't count it."

Soon, before Jing Yu had any reaction, Mo Xiangsi pushed him away, "Don't look at me like that."

Mo Xiangsi was about to leave.

However, Jing Yu grabbed his wrist. He was stronger and hurt her when he scratched. Mo Xiangsi became anxious, "Who the **** are you? Those trivial things between us have been five years ago. , Are you so? I didn't destroy your family, and didn't plan your ancestral grave. What do you mean by holding me?"

Jing Yu felt better when she touched her soft wrist.

But he still didn't let go of Xiangsi.

He stepped forward, his body almost close to her, no matter what occasion it was, and said, "Mo Xiangsi, you broke me."

Mo Xiangsi had a question mark on her face.

"I haven't had a woman in five years. Don't you think you should bear some responsibility?"

"If you don't have a woman, go find it." Mo Xiangsi said.

"I can't." Jing Yu answered quickly.

"...?"

Jing Yu clenched her hand tightly, "Stone|Not to get up."

Mo Xiangsi shook off his hand, the disgust and sarcasm in his eyes were strong.

The wrist was grabbed again.

In the next second, Jing Yu said, "But it's already done just now," his fingers clasped her palms, "just when I saw you."

After he finished speaking, his eyes met Ji Shen who was standing behind Mo Xiangsi.

There is no doubt that Ji Shen has listened to what Jing Yu said.

To be honest, Ji Shen certainly felt embarrassed.

But he has been around Gu Hansheng for so many years, and he has never seen any big scenes. Now, although he is shocked, he can still accept this.

There was no reaction on Jing Yu's face either. Compared to the eyes of others, he was more concerned about Mo Xiangsi at the moment.

But Mo Xiangsi stepped on Jing Yu's foot, broke away, stepped back a few steps, and kept a safe distance from him, "Don't deal with stupid guys."

Mo Xiangsi opened the door of the ward and walked in.

She leaned against the door, calming her mood.

Liang Shu was asking about Liang Jiu Jiu's news. The teacher in the training class called Liang Shu and said that it has been a whole day that Liang Jiu Jiu did not go to piano lessons today.

Liang Shu thought something was wrong, and Mo Xiangsi said that she took Jiujiu to play outside.

Then a phone call came over there.

Mo Xiangsi glanced outside the door, then walked into the ward, stood by the window and answered the phone quietly, "A Shu."

"I remember that you had a date today? I just got off work, and I came to pick up Jiujiu and take her to buy the little skirt she liked the other day."

Mo Xiangsi glanced at the hospital bed and said, "The date is blown, and Jiu Jiu and I are strolling outside. I will take her back when the time comes."

"When will it be finished?"

"Still walking around."

"Okay, then you guys early, I'll wait for her at home."

"Ok."

After hanging up the phone, Mo Xiangsi felt a little distressed.

She knew about the relationship between Jing Yu and Gu Hansheng. After five years, she saw Jing Yu again and didn't feel anything, but she didn't know how A Shu was...

At night, Liang Jiujiu woke up.

Mo Xiangsi's hanging heart finally let go.

She first fed Jiujiu and drank a few sips of water. The little girl's face was pale, her black eyes were embedded under the black bangs, as if she could be fascinating, Mo Xiangsi reached out and touched Liang Jiujiu's face, "Jiu Jiu, your eyes really look like your mother."

Jiujiu pursed her mouth, half of her face was buried in the quilt, and she looked at Mo Xiangsi with a pair of eyes open, "The godmother, shall we go back?"

Mo Xiangsi put down the water cup and said, "Your mother should be worried if you don't go back. Maybe you want to call and say I broke you."

Just after she finished speaking, Liang Jiujiu had already got up from the bed on her own initiative. She stretched out her hand and rubbed her belly, "It doesn't seem to be uncomfortable."

...

Mo Xiangsi led Liang Jiujiu out of the ward.

Jing Yu was still standing at the door.

He was leaning against the white wall opposite, with his hands in his trouser pockets, with a long leg bent, his head down, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Jing Yu raised his head and watched the one-year-old and one-child walk out of it, he stepped forward.

Liang Jiujiu raised her face and looked at Jing Yu. She was a little confused, "Uncle, why are you still here?"

Hearing the sound, Jing Yu looked down at her.

After experiencing and feeling for most of the day, Jing Yu now sees Liang Jiujiu in a different mood again.

Anyway, there is no direct ready-made evidence, Jing Yu still believes that Jiujiu is his daughter.

He stepped forward, squatted down, and wanted to reach out and touch her soft hair. At this time, Jing Yu completely forgot how badly he was towards Liang Jiujiu during the day.

However, before the hands touched Jiujiu, he listened to Mo Xiangsi coldly shouting: "Don't touch her."

Even Liang Jiujiu was taken aback, she leaned against Mo Xiangsi.

Jing Yu retracted his hand, he stood up and looked at her.

Mo Xiangsi's emotions are mixed together, she is actually afraid that Jing Yushun can find Liang Shu... Thinking of this level, Mo Xiangsi bent over and hugged Liang Jiujiu, and said coldly to Jing Yu, "You are the best. Don’t try to follow me, you know, it’s easy for me to disappear again."

After finishing speaking, he walked towards the side of the corridor, his steps were a bit fast.

She has to send Jiujiu home, and then temporarily clear the relationship with Liang Shu.

People generally don't take the initiative to think of people who have died, and they don't easily associate certain things with the dead. As long as Liang Shu doesn't show up, she won't be discovered.

Jiujiu hugged Mo Xiangsi's neck and lay on her shoulders obediently, waving her little hand towards Jingyu, and smilingly said, "Goodbye, uncle."

Jing Yu looked at the picture, only feeling that his heart was about to melt.

The feeling in his eyes was a little wet, and soon, he also walked in the direction where Mo Xiangsi had left.

Mo Xiangsi hugged Liang Jiujiu all the way out of the hospital. Liang Jiujiu didn't quite understand. She asked Mo Xiangsi, "Godmother, why is that uncle always in the hospital?"

"He is sick."

"……Oh."

Stopped the taxi, Mo Xiangsi hugged her and sat in, then took a shower in the car, Jiujiu confessed, "When we go back, tell your mother that we went shopping. Don't talk about encountering these two uncles, godmother is okay. You have to leave for a few days, stay with your mother, don't make her angry, she has a hard time making money, and don't skip class."

Jiujiu nodded her head for a long time, and for the last one, she shook her head.

She pouted, "I don't want to go to class anymore."

"Why? Don't like the piano?"

Jiujiu shook his head, "No."

"Then why?" Mo Xiangsi asked her.

Liang Jiujiu glanced at Mo Xiangsi with embarrassment, a little twisted, "There is a boy in the piano class who likes me, so he doesn't want to go to class with him."

Mo Xiangsi held his forehead, "God, how old are you..."

Mo Xiangsi changed several taxis in the middle, and only after making sure that no one was following, did she send Liang Jiujiu back to her residence.

She left without saying a few words to Liang Shu.

She does not live with Liang Shu.

She went back to her place, but she always felt a little uncomfortable, as if there was something wrong.

The next day, the person who was beaten by Jing Yu yesterday called to ask about Xiangsi.

Mo Xiangsi had forgotten this person a long time ago. She was going to leave Budapest temporarily and go to neighboring countries to get some air, so she refused directly.

But who knows that the other party is reluctant and reluctant to move out of yesterday’s affairs and say, "I know those two are people you know. If you don’t agree, I’ll call the police. You know they encounter this kind of thing in this kind of place. , It is very unfavorable for them."

Mo Xiangsi was packing things. Hearing this, he threw the clothes in his hand into the suitcase and sat down on the stall, "Then you will report it."

It would be the best if the two could be arrested.

"Do you believe it or not, I really reported it? If the embassy is involved..."

Involving the embassy...not only Jing Yu is about to end, but A Shu also has to be exposed.

Mo Xiangsi was irritable, she narrowed her eyes and asked for an address, "Okay, then this afternoon."

She didn't need to be afraid of having a drink at the bar.

She is a frequent visitor to bars and discos.

But Mo Xiangsi did not expect that the man would add medicine in the wine.

What she didn't expect was that the man was finally beaten by Jing Yu again.

Then Jing Yu took her to the hotel.

These people abroad have fun, and they have all kinds of medicine, some of which can't be solved by going to the hospital.

Jing Yu was showering her with gentle movements.

Mo Xiangsi was lying in the bathtub, like a boneless fairy.

She wasn't afraid of losing her life, because honestly speaking, she would rather it be with Jing Yu than with the gringo.

So why is she flustering?

Mo Xiangsi couldn’t tell. Later, she found a reason for herself. She was afraid that this 30-something old man would completely entangle herself this time. He is still married. Would she want to become again? His mistress?

It's not worth it.

She likes young flesh, it's best to hang it from the obedient little wolf dog who is not lethal.

But if you plan to usher in the worst result, you will be entangled in Jingyu again.

That's okay, she happily uses his money to support the young body, one is not enough, at least two.

Don't bet on her, she can't do this.

Thinking about it, Mo Xiangsi was relieved.

She is like this, it is easy to let go, and easy to figure out.

Later, Mo Xiangsi began to have hallucinations, and she felt that it was a problem with the medicine.

Before she knew it, she hugged Jing Yu's neck.

After that, it was in bed.

There are no lights around and it's very dim.

Jing Yu admits that he is very bad, but if Mo Xiangsi really gets along with the **** who can only rely on drugs to get a woman under his nose, then he might kill.

However, this situation is double standard, and he is now enjoying the benefits of the gringy's medicine.

As if being hypnotized, Mo Xiangsi put away her spikes and minions, obediently, and listened to him very much.

He teased her for a while, and felt almost done.

Jing Yu was thinking about whether to ask her questions after finishing it or before starting.

Soon, he lowered his head and kissed her squishy red lips, or ask now, what if she passed out in the middle?

Tomorrow she wakes up and he won't get the answer he wants.

After all, he hasn't been in for five years...it doesn't matter if Mo Xiangsi can bear it, but he has to be her, and Jing Yu doesn't know what it will be like when he gets crazy.

Jing Yu didn't satisfy her at first, but indulged Mo Xiangsi to answer her several questions.

Mo Xiangsi encountered the Waterloo of life this evening.

Today, what Jing Yu wants to know most is whether Jiujiu is his daughter.

He squeezed Mo Xiangsi's soft fingers and stared down at the woman who was so nice and made him care for more than a thousand days and nights, and asked in a hoarse voice: "Is Jiujiu our daughter?"

Mo Xiangsi stared at him with blurred eyes, then shook his head, "No."

Jing Yu's face sank, and he twisted his eyebrows, wondering if she was sober.

He asked her, "Who am I?"

There was no change in Mo Xiangsi's eyes. She touched Jing Yu's face with her hands, rubbed her fingers on his facial features, and then said, "You are a scumbag."

"..."

"Sisi is obedient, you say, is Jiujiu my daughter with you?"

Mo Xiangsi became a little impatient, she turned her face away, half of her face was buried in the pillow, a little intolerable, "No, no, Jiujiu is the daughter of A Shu."

Jing Yu's black eyes moved, and he twisted his eyebrows, "Who is A Shu?"

Mo Xiangsi stood up and bit on his shoulder, "A Shu is A Shu, the ex-wife of another scumbag, Gu Hansheng," she finished biting, staring at Jing Yu, the expression on her face is rarely vivid at this moment, and she furiously Say, "Can you do it?"

Jing Yu had already been thundered by the phrase "Gu Hansheng's ex-wife" in her mouth.

But he has been absent for five years, facing Mo Xiangsi, it is the limit to be able to survive until now.

At the moment, he satisfied Mo Xiangsi and also filled his hollow heart over the years.

Nineteen o'clock in the evening local time.

It is around one in the middle of the night in China.

Just after Jing Yu had finished the game, Mo Xiangsi fell asleep tired after the intermission.

The first one was a long time, but this appetizer barely gave him a tooth-beating ceremony. He kissed the corners of Mo Xiangsi's mouth, gave her a quilt and got out of bed, let her rest for a while, and then continue later.

He has more important things.

Jing Yu took the cell phone, found out Gu Hansheng's number, and dialed it.

Although Jiujiu was not his daughter that made him very upset, but thinking about the past few years... he decided to ignore Mo Xiangsi's opinion and tell his friend about this matter.

Gu Hansheng did not sleep this night.

He has been sitting in a chair after dealing with things in the study, all around him is quiet, the light of the desk lamp falls on the photo.

In the photo, Liang Shu is wearing daily home clothes, her long hair braided in a braid and falling aside, she is nestled in his arms, her smile is very warm and sweet.

He stared at that smile for an entire hour.

Some don't dare to sleep tonight.

He longed to see her, but he was afraid to see her.

The desk phone vibrates.

Gu Hansheng glanced, then pinched.

After a while, the phone vibrated again.

It is still Jing Yu.

Gu Hansheng picked it up this time.

"Hansheng, tell you something."

This night, he heard a little bit of anger in Jing Yu's tone.

He didn't speak, rubbing the cold smile with his fingertips.

Immediately afterwards, Jing Yu said, "Liang Shu is not dead, you still have a daughter who is four years old."

Then that paragraph took the lead to pinch the phone.

Jing Yu is going to the next game.

The phone on the desk did not know how many times it vibrated, and Jing Yu didn't seem to hear it either.