The Devil is Lurking By Your Side

Hou Qixuan's diary:

May 20, 1998 (sunny day)

The weather is so hot. .

I rode the bicycle with Pei Ting to school as usual. She held my waist with her hands and talked a lot, while I just listened to her gentle and lovely voice with a smile.

I am older than her, but only 1 minute and 55 seconds older, but still older than her, so I must protect her.

When I parked my bicycle in the shed, the nasty boy stood next to him. He was always around Pei Ting, playing a lot of ghost ideas. However, he would never know that he could not get Petting because there was me beside her. .

I take Pei Ting to the classroom every day, and we have been sitting next to each other, if others want to get closer. . Haha, there are no doors.

"Qixuan, why are you always guarding Pei Ting like a flower-protecting messenger? How can she make a boyfriend like you?" A female classmate sitting in the front row of me once told me this, but I don't want to Take care of her.

When I turned my head to look at Pei Ting, she actually smiled at me, very bright and sunny. Just because of her smile, my mood has become particularly good all day, warm and sweet, she probably likes the feeling of me protecting her, right?

still. . She felt the same for me too?

No, I can't think about it anymore, she is my sister, and we are still twin sisters. . It is wrong to think this way. .

May 30, 1998 (Big Sun)

Pei Ting is so smart. She quickly finished the homework given by the teacher and is sleeping next to me. But looking at these exercises, I was full of Pei Ting's beautiful face.

Haha, what are you talking about beautiful? We look exactly the same, so we are narcissistic.

However, I actually didn't think I was pretty. It was her who really looked good, not me. . She is so charming, so gentle, and the best-looking girl in the world.

I couldn't restrain myself and kissed her secretly last night, and she slept soundly, completely unaware. What would she do if she knew?

Give me a slap, still. . Kiss me back?

I think too much, alas. . . .

Petting, I love you.

June 25, 1998 (Happy!)

Pei Ting said this to me just now: "Sister, if we don't get married in the future, then we will buy a house with only the two of us living together. Are you okay?"

I said: "Yes, but why don't you want to marry?"

She said: "Because I like you, sister!"

like. . She said she liked me. .

My heart is almost melted by her.

I'm so happy!

At that moment, I had the urge to pull her into my arms and kiss her, but I quickly controlled it because I couldn't do this and it would scare her.

At that time, she will tell her mother, and then her mother will beat me to death, and will not even let me sleep with her.

July 24, 1998 (still very happy)

Pei Ting had her menarche today. She has grown up and is a big girl, and I was a few months earlier than her. At that time, she pulled me into the bathroom and quietly said to me: "I have a period."

After hearing this, I was worried that I was half dead. I kept asking her if she was uncomfortable, whether she had put on sanitary napkins, whether she knew how to use sanitary napkins, and so on. I was even more afraid that she might be scared the first time she came. Said: "When I grow up, I can also protect my sister."

Hahaha! She said to protect me, what does that mean?

I danced happily.

December 20, 1998 (shivering)

Am i dying? If I still sit here, I think I will freeze to death soon. Pei Ting, how are you doing? When you can't see me, will you miss me?

You told me last month that when the first snow came, we would have a snowball fight together, but what about now?

I feel so cold. . Pei Ting, I'm so cold. . I can't do anything. I can only sit here and keep writing a diary, hoping to help me drive away the cold.

How will you be after I'm gone?

Happy I can't care about you anymore?

still. . Sad because maybe for a long time in the future, you won't be able to see me again?

I feel so cold. . . I don't want to die yet. .

February 10, 1999

Petting, I miss you. .

The couple who adopted me are very good to me. They take care of me in every possible way. How about you? Are you ok? I want to see you, but I can't go back because I don't have any extra money.

I can't sleep well every night, I miss you.

See you, let me see you again, okay?

Even if it makes me die immediately tomorrow, I am willing to do it. .

Our mother drove me away, she said to me: "You don't need to see Pei Ting again in your life, you are a pervert! Get out!"

She pushed me onto the train, and then I came here aimlessly.

I have sent you many letters, have you received them? If you receive it, why never reply to me?

Did my mother tell you what I thought, and made you feel that I was a pervert, so you didn't want to see me again, and didn't want to write back to me?

June 7, 1999

I look forward to your reply.

I was more silent than before.

I haven't laughed for a long time.

August 27, 2002

Should I feel desperate?

Pei Ting, how are you doing?

I dreamed of you. I dreamed that we were together every day as we were when we were young.

And why did you disappear like this?

I love you, I love you, I love you. .

March 18, 2006

I am desperate.

I won't miss you anymore.

September 2, 2015

I am back.

November 12, 2015

Hou Zhongyang, you beast! You wait and see, I won't let you go!

Pei Ting, what has happened to you all these years? What exactly did you encounter? ? How are you doing? ? ! !

December 20, 2015 (You all die for me!)

Oh my! ! My Petting. .

What have you experienced? Most of your hair has fallen out, you are smiling at me stupidly, your mouth is still drooling, is this still you?

Your body is full of scars, and there are red spots on your body. .

Then, you actually became thinner like this! !

Ahhhhhhh! ! ! ! ! !

The doctor told me not to approach you, I pushed them away, I beat them, you are my love, how can I not approach you! !

I hold you tightly and hold you like this for the rest of my life, okay?

I don't care what terminal illness you have, you are mine and I will take care of you for the rest of your life.

I protect you. .

I love you.

December 25, 2015

The doctor told me that you were dead soon.

I stared at you blankly, wondering if I should say Merry Christmas. .

Because I am not happy at all. .

I love you.

February 8, 2016

Pei Ting, today is the Spring Festival, I brought you new clothes.

I will dress you beautifully, okay?

Don't be afraid, with me, don't be afraid. .

I live nearby, I see you every day, okay?

It's just that I can't accompany you at night, and I can't sleep with you. The doctor here doesn't allow it. But don’t be afraid, I will visit you every day and I will make time to accompany you every day, okay?

I love you.

November 23, 2016

It’s great that we meet every day.

I love you.

October 29, 2017

Ugh. . . . You cried and yelled again today, and I can't stop you.

Sorry Peting, I can't let you knock your head on the wall, I feel distressed, so I had to ask the doctor to give you a tranquilizer and tie you to the bed.

I know you are uncomfortable being tied up, but I can't lose you.

Sorry, sorry, I love you.

May 16, 2018

I got the job of accompany a wine girl, maybe I have to accompany those stinky men to drink every day. But Peting, I promise you that I will only love you in my life.

I love you.

April 20, 2019

I have been a wine girl for almost a year, and I have been paying attention to him for a long time.

This brutal romantic is happy. Too Kuo's wife likes him too much, so she just stuffs him with money, but he doesn't notice me.

Petting baby, I can only see you in the morning now. I have to work in the afternoon and evening, and I will accompany you in the morning, okay?

I love you.

May 8, 2019

I killed someone. . . I killed this so-called father.

He hasn't repented until now, and he is not as good as a beast. He deserves to die.

This dress is for you. Look, there is a red heart that I stitched together on it. It represents my love for you, and it also means that this person is dead.

I avenged you.

I love you, love you very much.

May 9, 2019

You laughed again, but this time your laugh was very different than usual, not the kind of silly laugh that didn't understand anything.

Your laugh this time is the same as when you were a kid, it was a laugh with real joy.

Do you understand what I mean? Hou Zhongyang is dead, and your broken heart is slowly healed little by little? Your heart is repaired by me, isn't it?

Although it still has a lot of cracks, it still fits together, isn't it?

I love you.

May 12, 2019

The human-faced and beast-hearted teacher who bullied you is dead.

You see, does this dress fit well? For you.

I like to watch you laugh.

I love you, only you.

May 19, 2019

I must be faster. The police started investigating. Another beast died today, and there is one left.

Petting, if you knew that I killed the third person, would you be happy for me?

I love you.

May 23, 2019

This beast is the most useless, he actually begged me, and then his eyes widened when he died like the first three beasts, but this was particularly boring, because he was incontinent.

I had to clean the house for him, wasting my time.

But Peting, I can't give you this last dress. . Because I want one myself, and then you and I can wear the same clothes, just like a couple's clothes.

When I watched it wear on me, I actually smiled with satisfaction.

PS: When I killed the last animal, I still cried. Am I very useless? Am I softened to these **** beasts?

Ugh. . .

I don't want it either, but Pei Ting, I am willing to do anything for you.

I love you.

May 31, 2019

Today is our birthday, I bought you a cake.

I hope we can both be born in the same year and on the same day and die in the same year and on the same day.

I love you.

When Leng Yu saw this, he turned back and saw all the blank pages, thinking that this was the last page Hou Qixuan wrote in the diary, so he closed the diary.

She said to Huang Lin, who was sitting next to her, "These diaries must be submitted to the court. With these evidences, Hou Qixuan can hardly fly with her wings."

Although the words were cold, he could hear a hint of regret. .

Hou Qixuan was not bad in nature and kind by nature, but he was on this dead end.

After all, should it or shouldn't it?