Struggle in Russia

Leo Tolstoy was not in a particularly beautiful mood, not because he had encountered any disturbing things. To be honest, the two or three months after arriving in St. Petersburg felt more fulfilling than ever, and he felt genuinely happy.

Before that, he wrote in a letter to his elder brother: "Come to St. Petersburg is the right decision. Although the nobles here are more domineering than those in Moscow, which is disgusting, there are always some new friends who can surprise me..."

"Lieutenant Colonel Leonid Gorchakov is an upright and capable gentleman who manages the messy 748 regiment in an orderly manner...I never thought that there would be such a unit in Russia, without domineering and vicious officers , there are no tricky soldiers, some are a group of pure people..."

"I can feel their simplicity and earnestness. The soldiers train hard, the officers concentrate on their own affairs, and everyone gets what they deserve...Life is simple and simple, not even Lieutenant Colonel Leonid and Grand Duke Andrei Anything special... I like the simplicity of this..."

"By the way, that Grand Duke Andre surprised me. According to my understanding, the transformation of the 748th Regiment all came from this Grand Duke... He has no pretensions. Apart from his short stature and poor physique, all his advantages... He can sit and chat and joke with the soldiers, just like a farmer..."

"This grand duke also has a wealth of knowledge and is quite proficient in physics and chemistry. What is even more gratifying is that he also focuses on education. He even held a cultural cram school in the 748 regiment. The target is those ordinary serf soldiers. It is really amazing. Amazing!"

"I also joined the cram school, but just as a teacher, every student here is so focused, I like these students..."

"The only thing that is disgusting is the bureaucrats of the Admiralty. These bastards will only find trouble when they are full. We would have achieved so much more without those bastards..."

"My God, I didn't expect that I would tell you: I like the 748th Regiment, I like everything about this regiment, and I like to fight with Lieutenant Colonel Leonid and Grand Duke Andrei. That's really inspiring!"

Leo Tolstoy really liked the 748 regiment, and he liked his new friends even more. The only pity is that he will leave the 748 regiment soon. After all, he is not an active soldier, nor does he serve in the 748 regiment. In addition, Kazan University is about to start school, so he has to go back to report even if he put on a show.

But Tolstoy really didn't want to leave, especially when his new favorite friend was in big trouble. He wanted to fight with his new friend instead of worrying from afar.

"My young friend, why do you have to go to the Admiralty Building to watch?" Alexey Speransky asked with a sigh, "Didn't Lionia tell you that it's nothing serious,

Can they handle it? "

Tolstoy replied sullenly: "I know, but I still want to go..."

Looking at Tolstoy whose eyes were full of persistence, Alexei sighed, he was most afraid of such persistent eyes.

The last time Leonid looked at him like this was when he wanted to go to the 748 regiment. That time he was defeated by this look and had to help Zhang Luo. And this time Tolstoy had the same look. Well, he also has no resistance, so he can only agree, but exhorts:

"My friend, it's okay for me to take you to see it. But I must remind you in advance that the scene may be very unfavorable to our mutual friends, and may be full of malicious abuse and slander, and it will be very uncomfortable!"

"But you must be calm and restrained! Don't be impulsive!"

Tolstoy curled his lips, feeling helpless and dissatisfied with this. Why should people who act with integrity be slandered and criticized? And those guys who don't do anything serious and just think about dawdling or making money for money instead occupy the commanding heights of morality, and can point fingers and talk nonsense instead?

"That's unreasonable and unfair!"

Facing Tolstoy's protest, Alexei sighed: "Yes, it's not fair at all, but what can be done? The reality is like this..."

He reminded again: "If you can't exercise restraint, then I can't take you there!"

"Why?" Tolstoy asked indignantly, "Should we just watch our friends suffer unwarranted attacks? We should fight with them, or at least face them together!"

Alexei shook his head and said: "No, my friend, you are wrong. What Leonid and Andrei hope most now is that you will not get involved. They have known all this for a long time that they will face each other one day. Yes, they have already made sufficient preparations...they can handle it."

"And you," Alexei paused, "you are not prepared for such a situation. Facing those cunning enemies, you may lose ground, or do irreversible things in a moment of anger. This is because they are unwilling As you can see, you don't want them to get involved in new troubles and questions because of you!"

Without waiting for Tolstoy to answer, Alexei emphasized again: "So, if you must go, then keep calm and restrain your emotions. Believe that your friends will be able to face any situation, and believe that they will be able to handle it Come on, don't ask yourself to help, it may disrupt their plans and backfire."

Tolstoy said with a bitter face, "Can I really just watch?"

Alexey smiled wryly and said: "It's not just watching. My friend, you watch carefully, and you will always remember that scene. Whenever you slack off, think back, think back to this feeling of being helpless and powerless, this feeling of being helpless." That damned sense of helplessness is bound to re-energize you!"

Alexei said this to himself rather than to Tolstoy. These days, he got to know Leonid and Li Xiao very well, and the long-term communication and getting along with him made him gradually like this group of new friends, and he felt that it was really great to have such young people in Russia.

But now, a group of people who clearly only want to do things will be viciously attacked by a group of bastards who stand in the latrine and don't take a shit. Even Alexei, whose edges and corners had been smoothed by reality, couldn't bear it anymore.

For the first time, he doubted his father's teachings, and once again was extremely dissatisfied with this hateful and sad reality. He also wants to face and fight together with his friends, even if it is a catastrophe, but his heart is full and happy.

And this kind of fulfillment and happiness has disappeared for a long time, and when he regained it, he was so happy. He wants to keep this kind of happiness, and he hates himself even more for not being able to do anything...