Rebirth of the Father of Anime

"The chapter "Remaining Pain" has been emphasizing the phrase 'the real feeling of being alive'. Sou Sou novels use two special people, Ryo Ritual and Asakami Fujino, to think deeply about this meaning. Using the special to reflect the ordinary, then we What is the real feeling of being alive? For patients with analgesia, it is 'pain'. In "Remaining Pain", the protagonist Asakami Fujino is such an analgesic patient."

"When I first started watching, there was always a puzzling question for me. Why could Fujino Asagami tolerate that group of people to humiliate her? Even if she has 'Painless Syndrome', no matter how weak she is, she shouldn't be like this There was no resistance at all, and she didn't even show any psychological resistance. However, her inner monologue afterwards answered my doubts and deeply shocked me..."

I obviously can't feel the pain, but why can I feel the hurt in my heart.

After all, what is the heart? Is it the heart that is injured, or is it my brain?

The words with the meaning of attacking Fujino Asagami were accepted by the brain, and the attack was damaged. Because it hurts when you get hurt. Refutation, defense, and retort are all just medicine created by the brain to ease the injury.

So even I, who don’t know pain, can still feel the pain caused by the hurt in my heart.

But this is an illusion.

It must be an illusion.

Real pain is definitely not something that can be calmed down with words.

The hurt in your heart can be quickly forgotten. So the hurt in my heart is insignificant.

But the hurt of the body will continue to hurt as long as the injury still exists.

What a strong, definite proof of survival that is.

If the heart was the brain, it would be fine if my brain was injured.

That way I can get pain.

Just like every day I've had so far.

Being the same age. Even memories of abuse by young teenagers. Words that can hurt me.

...I remembered.

Their laughter. And a terrifying expression.

The time that was constantly being threatened, forced, and humiliated was mine.

When the man on top of me swung the knife.

My belly grew hot, and the clothes on my belly were torn and soaked with blood.

Thinking about the time I was stabbed, I was filled with aggression.

After dealing with them, I really felt the warmth and pain.

Once again, my heart tightened.

Unforgivable. This voice kept repeating in my heart until it broke into pieces.

"…Woo."

The knees buckled.

Has that happened again?

The abdomen heats up. The unpleasant feeling of having an invisible hand pinch my guts.

I feel like vomiting... I have never felt like this before.

Dizziness... The loss of consciousness has always been sudden.

Paralysis of the wrist... I have always relied on my eyes to confirm this condition.

Very painful.

...Ah, I'm still alive.

The stab wound started to hurt.

Injuries that should be healed, only pain can suddenly recur like this.

In the distant past, my mother once said to me that once an injury is healed, it will no longer hurt. But that would be a lie. My wound from being stabbed by a knife. Even after recovery, the pain remains.

...But mother, I like this kind of pain. Because I don’t have the feeling of being alive. Apart from that, there is nothing else that can make me aware of the fact that I am alive.

Because this remaining pain is definitely not an illusion.

"Fujino made it very clear that for her who suffers from painlessness, pain is the real feeling of being alive, and she would rather be insulted than feel pain. So what is painlessness? It is a hereditary sensory autonomy Nervous disorders, of course, are not inherited by Asakami Fujino. However, the result is the same. There are two types of sensations. Surface sensations that can be experienced, such as touch, pain, and temperature. The ** Deep sensations reported to the self such as movement and position. Generally speaking, these two occur simultaneously in cases of sensory paralysis.”

"Some people think that the body exists even if there is no feeling. Because the body is moving, they think that they are no different from us except that they have no feeling. However, this is wrong. The so-called no feeling means that nothing can be obtained. . Even if I touch it, there is no feeling of touch. I can only confirm that I have touched this reality through vision. It is just like reading. What is the difference from those fictional stories."

"Even when walking, it's just the body that's moving. You can't feel the reaction on the ground, and you can only recognize that your feet are moving. No, even this awareness is just a thin understanding that can only be believed after visual confirmation. Bar."

"There is no feeling. In other words, there is no body. In this way, it is no different from a ghost. For them, all reality is just something they can see. Even if they can touch it, it is no different from being unable to touch it! "

"Looking at it from this point of view, this is really a helpless disease. She obviously has a body, but has no real sense like a ghost. Just imagining this feeling, I can't help but feel pity for Fujino. She is already so unfortunate. , and suffered such treatment. So much so that I feel the same as Kurogiri, and I have no feelings for those people she killed."

"Looking back at the beginning of "Remaining Pain", it was raining on the street, and Fujino was squatting on the street corner holding his stomach. Kurogiri saw her running over and asked: 'Does your stomach hurt?' She almost subconsciously answered: 'No... ...' and then turned his head away. He asked again: 'Does your stomach still hurt?'"

"She answered subconsciously again: 'No...' and then slowly said, 'Well, it hurts very, very much.' Then she asked in a low voice, almost tentatively: 'I'm in so much pain that I'm about to cry. Can I cry?'. After receiving the affirmative answer, she felt like she was being pardoned, and then she lowered her head and almost cried with joy."

"It's like the curious and excited mood of a child who has just come into contact with something new. She was excited and trembling with this new feeling, but she was at a loss because of the strangeness of the feeling. Through the common sense of more than ten years of life, She felt that she needed to cry at this time. So she asked, tremblingly: 'Can I cry?'"

"I wonder, before this, how long had Asagami Fujino never cried at all?"

"Because she can't feel pain physically, and because she wants to cover up the fact that she can't feel pain, she always keeps her face in the face of injury; over time, her concept of injury has become a little blurry, and she doesn't know when she can When I cry, I don’t know who I can safely cry to.”

"So Asakami Fujino's reaction when faced with spiritual injury was to be at a loss. She was hurt in her heart, but she ignored it and didn't know how to deal with the injury. Orange said in "Remaining Pain", 'Although Is it a wound that is healed but still hurts?' It hints at some pain that is not visible on the surface, but realistically speaking, it may be various mental injuries."

"Just at this time, someone slapped her on the back, and the pain returned. At the same time, she also recovered her super power to distort things with her magic eyes. Almost immediately, she became crazily addicted to the pain. When she was in pain, she felt like a normal person. She could say to people: "It hurts, I feel pain." She kept saying it almost coquettishly to people and to the world, "I can When I feel pain, I am a normal person. In fact, I am waiting for her consciousness to say that pain will follow, and some care from others."

"I have great sympathy for the girl named Asakami Fujino. She was born as a 'non-suitable person' and was constantly ostracized and bullied by the outside world. In the end, she regained her sense of pain and was forced to become a 'murderer'. When she faced death, Only at this moment can I feel my true heart strongly.”

"...I want to live longer, speak more, be able to think, and want to stay here. The true face of what makes me happy. This fact hurt her more deeply than anything else. . Now I finally understand the meaning of the sin I committed and the blood I shed. The meaning is so profound that even an apology is impossible."

"Actually, she really just wanted to say those words. The true intention that has been hidden by her own stubbornness until now...the dream that her young self had, the wish that others seemed to be extremely small."

pain.

It hurts so much, it really hurts. I am about to cry from the pain... Can I cry?

Fool, if you feel pain, just say it.

"This story is not long, but I read it for a long time. It was interrupted several times, not because the content could not attract me to finish it in one breath, but because my inner emotions were aroused to the limit several times, and I couldn't stand it any longer. I can’t bear to read any more.”

"Just like what Teacher Huang Shaotian said, although these are just common themes in novels, the Big Devil used his own hands to compose a kind of pain that penetrates the flesh and blood, oppressing the audience and readers heart of."

"Once the physical injury is healed, it won't hurt anymore, but the inner injury cannot be healed, so the pain will remain."

"I really feel the grief."

Although he is only the protagonist in "Remaining Pain", Asakami Fujino's character creation is very successful. Especially under He Chen's in-depth training, Mamiko has grown like a reincarnation. Asakami Fujino's inner monologue, like the echo in the valley, deeply affects every audience who hears it, making her charm even more... Go up one floor.

In "Remaining Pain", although she is a "villain", she is a villain that the audience can sympathize with and accept.

Seeing the two men raising and lowering their swords, countless people sighed with regret.

When they heard that the two rituals did not kill Asakami Fujino, but saved her, some people were relieved. (To be continued...)

ps: Happy Dragon Boat Festival to everyone!