Rebirth of the Father of Anime

In a coffee shop in Nagoya, Hisaya Naoki is sitting on the second floor by the window, sipping coffee while quietly watching the passersby on the side of the road. In the coffee shop is the recently popular "fate/a1t day" One of the bgm of Court of Avalon, a soothing piano piece.

The boss here seems to be an avid fan of "fate". With the popularity of "", the boss has arranged the entire cafe in the main style of "fate", and the waiters are all wearing "fate" clothes The clothes, and even the address, have changed from "Mr./Miss" to "master".

Naoki Hisaya is also a fan of "fate", so he often comes to this cafe.

The business here is good, and we can see the influence of "fate" and "porter" here. If it was during the broadcast time of "", I'm afraid I can't even find the location, it's like a football bar during the World Cup.

This is his old location. In addition to the better view and the scenery, there is also a very important point that it is close to the power supply. He always brings his own laptop, and he sits here for a day. Freelance work is just like this. benefit.

But now that "" is over, the enthusiasm is gradually cooling down.

The main body of "fate" is still preserved here, and there are many fellow fans who come here. What everyone talks about is still the story of c∷, □", arguing endlessly for the characters they like, or imagining what will happen in the future The story of "fate" All fans believe that the world of "fate" will not just end like this.

At least there is a theatrical version. The Great Demon King has spoken. If the BD sales of "" are over 10,000, we will prepare for the next theatrical version. In order not to let the world of "fate" come to an end, some friends around him contributed to the sales, buying three or four copies, or ten copies of BD.

I just sold the first bd volume recently, the sales volume of the first volume alone is close to 10,000, and it is still rising, not to mention the sales volume of the subsequent volumes. Therefore, the theatrical version is already a certainty.

It just rained. The weather outside was still cloudy, and the pedestrians were in a hurry, with different expressions, as if they hadn't recovered yet, but it was much better than the numb expression that looked like a walking dead a few years ago.

"A man who lost his wife embarks on the road of finding redemption under the guidance of his father" is indeed very similar to the beginning of "Kingdom of Heaven", but it turns out to be a completely different story. As a secular person, Balian of Ibelin sought reconciliation with the faith, but Kirei, as a priest, finally found his own.

Listening to the soothing piano music, he recalled " ", and among the many star-studded characters, he resonated with Kirei very differently.

No passion, no lofty ideals to subdue from the heart, no belief in anything, no idea what the purpose of his life is, and he can only find the right to do things that humans generally think should be done... These are all things he has experienced before mentality.

And he did even sometimes find some pleasure in the misfortunes of others. If there is anything that prevents him from fully turning into a Kirei-like character, the most effective one is probably the fear of pain. It is precisely it that allows him to be content with some third-rate comforts. Decided to wait until the end of this hopeless life.

And Kirei is not only a person without passion, he seems to be extremely insensitive even to the feeling of pain, and he can always squander his life in a fierce and unsparing way, which is absolutely impossible for him.

Compared with the lack of "pain", Kirei's life has never been lacking in "depression".

Naoki Hisaya was amazed to see a person with both great strength and irrefutable evil nature, sincerely fearing his own nature, thinking that it is shameful to obey it, and sincerely trying his best to resist the embrace of the id; Fear and resistance are not based on any concerns about gains and losses, it seems that it is just because he feels that "this is wrong." Hisaya Naoki admitted that this is the first time he has seen such a character, so that he is almost overwhelmed by Kirei's strange distress. Charmed.

O ghost in a human body, since nothing can restrain you, and your empty soul is not afraid of external hostility, what is it that drives you so long to stand against yourself?

The more he tries to find this answer from the world of "fate", the more he has to admit that it seems to be the most impossible Kirei he thinks. Until he is reborn from the heart of the black mud, he still firmly believes that there is truth in this world, And this truth is for good.

"If God is the creator of all things, then 'happiness' is the truth for all souls. But now, a soul that violates morality but obtains happiness really exists. Kirei has just believed that this soul is none other than Myself. In this way, there is a contradiction between the definition of good and evil, and the location of truth. This contradiction cannot be ignored." No matter how unbelievable it may seem, isn't it this Kirei who asked this question?

He is still affirming the program of truth in the world that he abandoned, but he just regards himself as a piece of code that has gone wrong, acknowledging this kind of existence, and it will run in this wrong way in the future.

"There should be an obvious reason for the equation that led to this weird answer. No, there must be. What is it... I must ask, I must find it. If it takes my whole life, I will To understand." No matter which pole of good or evil he walks in, Kirei is always the same sincere and distressed seeker.

And this is the place where, while arousing a sense of resonance, Naoki Hisaya can develop some respect for him and realize the most essential difference between himself and this person.

While he was typing on the keyboard of his notebook following the rhythm of the music, the owner of the coffee shop came over with coffee and snacks, put the coffee and snacks in front of him, and sat opposite him.

Because he comes here often and always sits in the same place. Plus, I have the same hobbies as my boss. After chatting a few times. The two became friends.

Hisaya Naoki is also welcome, the snacks provided by the boss are all baked by the boss himself, the taste is good, most people can't eat it.

""" is really a wonderful story. A few days ago, I made up the fate line of "" again. Watching it together with "fate/a1t day a Court of Avalon" and "" makes people feel unsatisfied."

The coffee shop was not busy at this time, and the boss was chatting with him. Then asked him: "I am puzzled by one thing, just as I am puzzled by the reason for Kirei's obsessive resistance to his true self. That is why he doesn't seem to have thought about it for even a moment, just like what happened to Kariya Matou , to get pleasure from Tohsaka Tokiomi? Generally speaking, people who get pleasure from the collapse and depravity of others can hardly resist the pleasure of letting the most solid and upright personality collapse and degenerate, but Tohsaka Tokiomi seems to be There is no such attraction."

Hisaya Naoki picked up the coffee, and the two often discussed this way. He thought for a while and said, "Is it true that Kirei didn't have any malicious interest in Tohsaka Tokiomi? I think maybe the answer is not so sure. In his In my heart, I have compared Tohsaka Tokiomi and his father Risei more than once, thinking that they are the same kind of people, whether it is their clear ideals and goals, or their unreserved trust in themselves. But after seeing Risei's body The moment. It really came up with the idea of ​​'before my father died, let him taste the ultimate pleasure in the world'..."

"I think. For Tokiomi who belongs to the same type as Rizheng, it may not be that he has not had the same thought once. And what hinders him is probably the same thing that has always prevented him from awakening his nature. Yes The affirmation of the truth of goodness exists in the world, although he does not know where this affirmation comes from, it does exist in this distorted soul. So he must have affirmed Rizheng and Tokiomi in the same way. These two people are 'right', I It is a piece of wrong code. There is an unbridgeable gap between 'right' and 'wrong'. 'Right' cannot be made 'wrong', nor should it be. 'Right' can only be cleared and reduced But it cannot be distorted. The so-called pleasure is to find out other hidden faults..."

The owner of the coffee shop looked thoughtful, then nodded and chatted with Hisaya Naoki.

"Suddenly I feel that Kirei's image is somewhat similar to the protagonist Michelle in "The Immortal". It also has no sense of belonging to morality and goodness, and the code of conduct is completely demanding oneself according to the standards of the world, because 'this should be done' That's why I do it. Sometimes I get pleasure from things that go against common sense. The difference is probably that Michelle did enjoy the joy of love on her wedding night. To repay his wife's love and blame himself for not fully repaying his wife's selfless devotion. Unfortunately, in the end, the child's death and his wife's death completely shattered his hope of returning to a 'normal life', and finally ended up indulging himself in emptiness .”

"I think Kirei's situation is like the extreme of this situation. Because he has no sense of belonging to morality emotionally, he can only rely on the education he received later in life to restrain and regulate his behavior. I have to admire Kirei's character here. People can admit without hesitation that what is right is right and what is wrong is wrong, and I belong to the category of mistakes. Although Michelle sometimes feels ashamed of some of his behaviors and thoughts, in the later stage he I can’t help but promote my theory in front of my wife, rationalize my thoughts, and try to change what he once thought was wrong to the right direction.”

Perhaps Kirei's charm lies in his purity? He will not rationalize his behavior and will not yearn for morality and desire to be redeemed. Since he is a wrong code, he will naturally go all the way to the end on the wrong road.

Hisaya Naoki himself felt conflicted about this.

After all, he and Kotomine Kirei still have different tastes, so he somewhat expects the fun of "destroying and degrading the most solid and upright personality".

Having said that, there is some fear of seeing this become a reality.

It's like seeing a beautiful oil painting and wanting to touch it, but also knowing that part of the beauty of the oil painting will disappear with the touch, and it will no longer be the painting that he can't help but want to touch because of its beauty .

So maybe Kirei's choice in another direction still meets my expectations. Don't change it, just sink it into the abyss.