Rebirth of the Father of Anime

Okazaki returned to the sunflower field. He had been here before, and now Xiaoxi was here too.

He had forgotten his own happiness at first, but Xiao Xi was looking for the happiness she longed for.

"Have you been looking for her all this time?" Okazaki stared at Xiao Xi's small figure, walked over, and looked at his daughter with unprecedented concentration - he had never looked at her with such eyes before.

The little figure shuttled through the flower field, with confusion and sadness on her face. She had been looking for it.

"Yeah." Xiao Xi lowered her head and made a muffled voice.

When Okazaki looked at Xiao Xi, he thought of his young self and his father who had been leading him forward. He squatted down, Xiao Xi raised his head and looked at his father. Okazaki said to Xiao Xi gently: "Xiao Xi , that robot...may not be found anymore, there's nothing we can do about it. Let me buy you a new one, okay?"

Xiao Xi lowered her head sadly, tears already rolling in her eyes, as if they were about to fall in the blink of an eye, but they were locked in her eyes - because this was not a place where she could cry.

"That's unique..." Xiao Xi whispered.

Very lost, sad, and stubborn.

"Aren't there still many for sale in the store?" Okazaki said.

"You chose it for me, bought it for me..." Xiao Xi clenched her fists and tightly grasped the hem of her skirt.

Okazaki was stunned, and Xiao Xi raised his head, looked at his father, and said, "It's dad, it's the first time..."

Okazaki's eyes widened and his throat twitched twice, as if a stone was stuck in his throat. Complex emotions such as sadness, regret, pain, etc. came to my mind.

He lowered his head.

Xiao Xi. Starting from birth. It's been five years.

But this was the first time she received a gift bought for her by her biological father.

It's not a precious item, and it doesn't even look like a toy that girls should play with. It's just a very common, very cheap, and there are a lot of robot toys on the shelves in the convenience store at the station.

However, this was the first gift her father bought her. For her, this gift was unique!

This gift,

More valuable than anything else!

How did Xiao Xi's childhood come to be?

When I see other peers who have mothers. She...has never seen her mother.

When she saw that other peers had fathers, she... knew that she had a father, but she had never lived with him.

When she sees other peers asking their parents "how did they get here?", what about her?

Other parents said "picked up" was just a joke, but Xiao Xi was really picked up - she was abandoned by Okazaki.

Parents are people who are very familiar to others, who protect them, cook for them, and bring them laughter.

But for Xiao Xi... Xiao Xi has no idea what "father" and "mother" are.

No matter how much Sanae and Qiusheng like Xiaoxi and care about Xiaoxi. But they are not "parents" after all, their love is the same as parents' love. is different.

So that night when she stayed with her father, she asked him something - tell me about my mother.

Everyone has a mother, but for Xiao Xi, she can only understand a very vague shadow from other people's mouths, and can no longer feel it with her own body and mind.

It is a very common question, but it is so sad, heartbreaking, and pitiful.

For most people, they receive countless gifts from their parents since birth, but for Xiao Xi, this is the first gift since birth.

For her who has almost never received love from her father, this represents the love she has received from her father!

Therefore, this is a gift more precious to her than anything else.

After losing it, she was sad, frightened, and stubbornly wanted to find the gift, because in her little knowledge, her father would not live with her. After this trip is over, her father will leave again, and she will not be able to play with him like this, and she will not be able to enjoy the time like this with him.

This gift is not only a memory of this wonderful time, but also the love from her father. As long as she has this gift, even if she can no longer live with her father like she does today, she can hold the robot and feel the love above. Carrying the warmth of love.

Once this gift was thrown away, it was as if she had lost her father's love.

For her who is very curious and looking forward to her father, she is afraid of losing this hard-won father's love.

So, she wants to find it no matter what - her lost father's love!

Countless scenes and words flashed through people's minds, eventually forming a small, lonely figure looking for something lost in the flower field - Xiao Xi.

However, these things only happened in a moment, but at this moment, the strong dam in my heart had been washed away by the tsunami of tears.

"Xiao Xi."

"Um?"

"Have you always been lonely..." Okazaki suddenly asked.

"Yeah." Xiao Xi replied in a low voice - she was very lonely.

"Would you like to travel with me?" Okazaki's voice became softer.

"Yeah!" Xiao Xi nodded vigorously.

"Xiaoxi," Okazaki's voice began to tremble, and he lowered his head, as if he had no face to face his daughter, "can I stay with you? Although I have been an unfit father for a long time. , but I will work hard for Xiao Xi in the future. So, can I stay with you? "

Okazaki raised his head, with tears in his eyes, looking at his daughter, Xiao Xi, with expectation and pleading.

This is an unfit father begging his daughter for forgiveness.

He is also an incompetent father who atones for his daughter and his wife.

"Yeah!" Xiao Xi nodded seriously.

"Really?" Tears filled Okazaki's eyes, as if he couldn't believe that his daughter, who had been abandoned by him, would actually forgive his unfit father.

"I hope you will accompany me." Xiao Xi said very firmly.

This sentence. It’s not just Okazaki that’s cured. As for the countless fans. This is the most cherished wish of a child. No matter what happened to her father, she always wants to live with her father. This is a love that no one can replace or make up for.

However, Xiao Xi lowered her head again, her mood became depressed, and her childish voice was filled with sadness: "But I went to something very important today, so I am very sad..."

It was the first gift from her father since she was born.

"Dad, that." Xiaoxi's shoulders shook slightly and her voice began to sob. She lowered her head and clenched her clothes with both hands, "Is it time to...don't you have to hold it back? Sanae said that the only place where you can cry is... bathroom……"

On the train, because the pair of children next to them who were acting coquettishly towards their mother aroused inner pain, Okazaki turned his inner pain into anger and roared at them. Xiaoxi was frightened by Okazaki's appearance. .

I ran to the toilet and came out. Her eyes were red, she said. The only place where I can cry is the toilet.

How heartbreaking it is. I wonder how many times Xiao Xi went to the toilet when there was no one around.

Faced with all kinds of grievances and sorrows, how many tears did she secretly shed in places where people couldn't see her?

People reminded each other of the way Xiao Xi said this to Okazaki on the train: timidly looking at Okazaki secretly, a little curious, a little starting point, a little scared, and he hesitated to speak.

She didn't finish her sentence then.

"...and in daddy's arms."

The only places where I can cry are in the toilet and my father's arms.

Xiao Xi has never felt what it feels like to be in her father's arms.

This ordinary sentence made countless fans burst into tears again.

The only places where I can cry are in the toilet and my father's arms.

How much loneliness and yearning for her father are contained in Xiao Xi's simple words?

"Yeah. Yeah!" Okazaki nodded vigorously, and tears finally burst out from his eyes, crying out regret, guilt, and so on.

Xiaoxi lowered her head and rushed into Okazaki's arms. Her small arms hugged Okazaki tightly, and she buried her head on Okazaki's shoulders. Her shoulders shook more and more violently, and her sobs gradually became more intense. He cried loudly and raised his head, with tears streaming down his face.

Finally, she no longer had to endure the tears of sadness. She could cry loudly in her father's arms without restraint.

She finally no longer had to go to the cold toilet. Her father's warm and strong embrace could tolerate everything about her, dispel all the sadness for her, and allow her to feel a sense of security, warmth and happiness that she had never felt before.

Okazaki put his arms around Xiao Xi and hugged her small body tightly, wanting to hold Xiao Xi in his arms forever and never let go.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." Okazaki whispered.

The two people's cries echoed in the open sunflower field.

This is a sad cry.

But it is also a cry of happiness.

Xiao Xi no longer has to rely on that toy to feel her father's love and warmth, because she has got the father she once dreamed of, who can hold her in a warm embrace forever.

"Xiao Xi, do you want to hear your mother's story?"

"Um."

"Okay, then come this way."

Not long ago, Xiaoxi wanted Okazaki to tell her her mother's story, but Okazaki, who was immersed in the sadness of Nagisa's departure, avoided everything and was unwilling to mention anything about Nagisa.

On the return train, Okazaki mentioned to Xiaoxi this topic that he had been avoiding.

This is the story of his wife and Xiao Xi’s mother.

Xiaoxi sat next to Okazaki, and Okazaki looked at Xiaoxi tenderly and slowly told Nagisa's story.

"let me see……"

"Mom, she is a person who seems to cry at any time. When I first met her, she was so unsure and weak. She kept standing at the foot of the school ramp. And guess what, she was on the ramp. What did I say next? Surprisingly, I said 'bean paste bread' with my eyes closed..."

The scene returns to the day when Okazaki and Konagisa first met. The cherry blossoms were falling at a speed of 5 centimeters per second. Suddenly a breeze blew, and the blown cherry blossom petals swirled between Okazaki and Nagisa, like a The bridge of destiny completely connected the lives of two people in this way.

"That's my mother's habit. She tells her what she wants to eat so that she can gain courage. Aunt Sanae was busy with work at that time and barely had time to make lunch for her. If she had to ask her, Aunt Sanae would definitely make time. Right. But mom didn’t do that. Mom is just such a person..."

"Then...then, mom, she..."

In a dazed moment, Okazaki's tears welled up from his eyes again, leaving them along his face, falling on the back of his hands drop by drop, gradually forming tears of memories.

Xiao Xi pulled Okazaki's clothes. She was also infected by Okazaki's sadness and shed tears.

Okazaki wiped away Xiaoxi's tears and then wiped away his own tears.

Smiling cheerfully, she continued to tell Xiao Xi her mother's story.

He completely got out of the shadow of Nagisa's departure, faced life head-on, understood his responsibilities, and his stagnant life finally began to move forward again.

Nagisa, I found it.

I finally found it.

Something only I can protect.

Only I can protect it, it is irreplaceable.

Okazaki's big hand held Xiao Xi's small hand.

That……

right here. (To be continued...)

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