I Shaved. Then I Brought a High School Girl Home.

"marriage blue?"

"Yes, marriage blue"

About a year ago.

I asked Hashimoto, who made a bear under his eyes every day to come to the office, what happened.

In response, he replied:

"She always cry before she goes to bed. She cry while saying" don't throw it away "or" what to do "

"Isn't it too important that you care about her?"

"That's ridiculous! I'm doing my best as much as I can. Still, something uneasy seems uneasy."

Hashimoto said so and made a gesture of spreading both hands continuously.

"So I'm always hugging and getting up until she sleeps tired and sleeps."

"I see, is that a bear?"

"Such that"

Hashimoto added one sigh.

"I'm saying, 'Don't throw it away. I'd rather say,' Don't go. '"

"Before marriage"

"That's true, so I have to keep telling me I need you in body language."

"It just heats up, anyway."

"Some days like that"

I joked, but I still remember a bitter face when I pulled out the unexpected location.

"Nuggu"

If I noticed, I was holding on to Sayu.

Sayu was forced to push her face against my chest and moaned painfully.

She fluttered and moved her body to resist a little, but I held Sayu anyway.

For some reason, I remembered the story of Hashimoto's wife who was about to get married.

Maybe Hashimoto's story and Sayuu's expression were worn.

Sayu, who invited me, looked like a puppy who wouldn't be thrown away by her parents.

"Ku, kurushi ..."

"Well, why do you want me?"

Ask while holding her.

"I don't really want to 'because I'm there. Why do you want to do that?"

As I asked, I remembered what happened at work today.

When Mishima asked for the cause after making a mistake, he said that he did not understand the meaning of the instructions and proceeded with the work.

"If you don't know, ask the guy you know!"

I shouted.

This is a boomerang remark.

I wasn't asking himself about anything about Sayu's feelings, but I was convinced that I knew it.

Because I don't realize I don't know, I feel bad.

The result is this.

I made you cry.

Until now, like living with tumors, she has lived without stepping into what she would not want to ask.

The time to step in is now.

"If you don't answer, drive out right away. It doesn't matter at night."

As I strengthened my speech, Sayuu's head jumped.

And her mouth rubbed against my chest.

“………………”

"I can't hear you"

"Because I don't know!"

Raising his face from Gabbat and my breasts, Sayuu screamed.

"I don't know what Yoshida is looking for!"

"So do the housework ..."

"It's a lie!"

As Sayu tries to get up with both hands, he puts his strength in his arm and stops it.

Until I hear everything, I'm not willing to release this hold.

"Mr. Yoshida just assigned to me what I could do for myself!"

"No such thing"

"Yes !! Even though I didn't get up today, I went to work alone."

"I didn't have breakfast"

"But you can live! I'm ... I can't live properly if I'm abandoned by Yoshida-san ..."

That is, of course.

It seemed too strange for comparison.

I didn't want to stay for free, so I said I should do my housework.

I don't remember asking me to help me live.

Thinking there, I was surprised.

"I'm helping Yoshida to live or die ... but it's not at all balanced ..."

No wonder.

She doesn't make money.

Feed her with the money I worked on.

I thought it was natural.

But for her.

Is that the biggest source of anxiety?

"So ... I don't know when I'm thrown away ..."

SaYu's vocabulary gradually weakens.

Again, the warm feeling spread to the T-shirt.

Are you crying again?

Do you think that if you are not helping the other person, that is, it is directly related to your "existence value" for the other person?

If you don't help, you will be thrown away again.

So he continued to prove his worth in the way every man wanted.

I've always done that.

Is that the case?

"I don't understand ..."

Naturally, it was leaking from my mouth.

I don't understand why a young schoolgirl, who should be still young, came to such a conclusion.

It was just empty.

Sayu shook his shoulders at my words.

She is scared.

I'm really afraid that "someone" would say, "I don't need you anymore."

Sayu fearfully looks up and looks into my face.

The expression that looks like a parent's mood.

I also hugged Gyu, Sayuu.

"It's cool"

Sayuu shouts a little.

"Do you know that you are stupid?"

"Mr.Yoshida"

"Even if I die, I'm not you"

I clearly asserted.

I heard Sa Yu inhale.

You may think you've finally been abandoned.

I knew it was absolutely painful, but I strengthened my arm.

"Mr. Yoshida hurts"

"Do you know? Reflect on it."

"What do you think?"

"It's up to you to decide your value for me !!"

I noticed, shouting.

Sayu in his arms shook as if frightened.

Regardless, I continued.

"I'm not interested in your body from the beginning. If you hold it, you'll want more milk or something bigger, and at worst you'll be fine with your right hand!"

I don't even know what I'm talking about.

However, it did not stop.

For some reason, I am desperate to tell Sayu "something" in my heart.

"I don't drive you out because you're a savage chan, and you can see that you've lived so far!"

I felt like taking care of my child.

She wanted to “correctly” return her values, which had been twisted under the influence of something.

Sa Yuu stared and opened his mouth.

"But if she's at home, she's just depressing."

As soon as I heard it, I felt something popping in my brain.

I don't know if this is anger or what.

When he noticed, he was screaming.

"I'm lonely, idiot!"

An idiot is myself.

What was the first thing I said, "I want to live".

It's just that.

What I didn't even think of, came out of my mouth. I was unaware that I was unknowingly stuck somewhere in my chest.

"Since you came, the rooms have become smaller and less lonely. The breakfast and dinner have become better. All the troublesome housework has been cleared up. All I need to do is sleep.

More power in the arm.

I felt my vision blurred.

"... I felt like I was married without getting a bride. I missed my loneliness."

Speech weakens. It gradually becomes a whisper.

He was terribly sad and said something selfish.

I didn't realize I was thinking this until I said it.

"I used you too ... so"

The voice fades.

"So stay here."

It's close to begging.

It was not a terrible fuss.

You said you'd beat your guts.

My roots were bent.

With a strange look from above, it looks like a face that has been pressed for trouble.

In fact, it was me who depended on this relationship.

After a long time, tears came out.

I did not think I was such a sad person.

As expected, I put too much effort.

I feel tired in my arms and relax.

Did you notice it? Sayuu moved her body and looked into my face.

"I'm crying"

"Please cry"

"I'm crying."

"Please cry"

Sayu caught my tears in the corners of my eyes with my fingers.

Then he sneezed and laughed with an unspeakable expression.

"I'm terrible, we"

With that smile, I seemed to relax my whole body.

Huh, breath leaks from the nose.

"Yes."

Haha laughs and Sayuu wakes up her body.

"Hey, Yoshida-san"

"what is it"

"I'm gonna hit me again."

Staring into my eyes, Sayuu said.

"Ah"

I nodded, as it was obvious.

It may have been before.

But it was not false.

It's strangely uncomfortable to watch a woman younger than herself keep walking in a strange way.

Seeing that I nodded, Sayuu laughed at her usual “spatula”.

"Then, until my guts get better."

Sayu's face is approaching my face.

"I will fill Yoshida's loneliness."

Sayuu kissed my forehead.

From this day, I think that the true co-living with Sayu has begun.

The apparent tenderness has been removed.

We decided to use each other to survive for the moment of hunger and loneliness.

This was like a "contract."

How much will this contract affect my and Sayu's lives?

It was unknown to both parties.