I Really Didn’t Want to be a Savior

Chen Feng suddenly smiled bitterly, "What? I look very optimistic?"

Zhong Lei looked at his slightly bitter expression and thought carefully for a moment, "It doesn't seem to be the case."

"Well, I am indeed a pessimist."

Zhong Lei: "Pessimist?"

Chen Feng nodded, "The degree may be a little deeper than your original celibacy."

Zhong Lei was suddenly exposed and didn't know how to respond.

Chen Feng added: "Who doesn't dream? Whose dreams are all beautiful dreams? Isn't it natural for pessimists to have nightmares? You won't ask me why I am pessimistic, will you? I really can't answer that."

Chen Feng thought about his failures again and again, the comrades who died in front of him one after another, the mothers of his children who died in battle again and again, and the daughters who were not born again and again, and his heart became more and more sentimental.

Zhong Lei noticed his changes and gradually became serious, "Do you really have nightmares often?"

He sighed, "Yes, I do it often. Once a month, it is indeed a nightmare, more real than you imagine, and the dream is continuous, like a stinky, long, and endless movie that never ends. A heart-wrenching and bloody TV series. I don’t want to recall it myself. Don’t ask me what happened in the dream, I don’t want to talk about it.”

When he said this, Chen Feng couldn't help but become really pessimistic.

If you go through all the trouble to kill a spherical warship, only to find that it is followed by hundreds of millions of invader warships, how should you deal with it?

Problems that he had avoided before would have to be faced sooner or later. Chen Feng couldn't think of a way for a while, and even the expectation of victory gradually dissipated.

He couldn't help but secretly think that maybe if he continued to fight for countless years, he could defeat the fleet of the Compound Eyes.

Then they counterattacked to the opponent's base camp, only to find that what they thought was the enemy's main fleet was just an insignificant advance team of the powerful Compound Eyes civilization that ruled the entire galaxy and even a larger star field.

So what should we do?

Well if I can still hold on.

But after the Compound Eyes are completely wiped out, will they still have to face the terrifying existence that produces and creates the solar system barrier?

If the rapid development of human beings is a wonder of the universe, then is the solar system barrier, a wall of sighs that makes even second-level civilizations completely despair, also a more powerful wonder of the universe?

At the higher levels of the civilization hierarchy, how many high-level civilizations are there that are incomparable, elusive, incomprehensible, and full of malicious intent?

How big is the universe?

How many civilizations are there in the universe?

Is there any hope for mankind to win the battle?

Will the other side let earth civilization go?

Chen Feng didn't know.

But the history of countless internal wars in human history told him that when a certain race has to rely on the kindness of others for its survival, disastrous consequences often occur.

It would be easy for our comrades to die.

But once Chen Feng puts on the battle suit and sets foot on the battlefield, he is destined to face an endless lonely war.

Although he had made big promises and made up his mind to burn out the invaders, as he struggled again and again, especially when staged victory was in sight, his mood inevitably wavered a little.

This time he worked too hard, and he even felt a little exhausted when he came back and woke up.

Before he knew it, he was beginning to tire.

He was really tired.

My heart also relaxed.

Being lax gave an opportunity for depression, so he was easily aroused by the topic of nightmares.

Chen Feng suddenly seemed to have all his strength taken away from him. He forgot about the paint on his back and sat softly on the chair.

Zhong Lei stared blankly.

After a long time, he forced a smile and looked up at Zhong Lei, "I'm sorry for letting you see my weak side. I'm embarrassed."

Zhong Lei shook her head, "It's not a shame."

Chen Feng smiled again, "Do you think I'm a bit pretentious?"

Zhong Lei rushed forward, hugged his head and pressed it on her chest, "I beg you, please stop laughing! Don't be pretentious! Ever since you wrote the first song for me, I have discovered that you have never When you are truly happy, your smile is just your protective color! Don’t lie to me!"

Feeling the warmth wrapping around his face, Chen Feng's nose felt sore for a moment, but he recalled the earnest teachings of the real man Brother Hu.

If Brother Hu, the strongest instructor in mankind, found himself like this, he would definitely laugh out loud.

He broke away slightly and continued to laugh, "It's okay, I can handle it."

The more he smiled, the more worried Zhong Lei became, "I'll take you to see a psychiatrist."

Chen Feng still smiled and shook his head, "It is difficult for a doctor to heal himself."

"What?"

"I forgot to tell you that I have studied a lot of psychology in my spare time, but I seem to have failed at it. The better I learn, the stronger my resistance to other psychiatrists becomes. My situation is difficult to explain. Generally speaking, A psychiatrist is of no use. An unusual one should be of no use either."

Zhong Leiba tightened her lips and wanted to say something to enlighten him, but found that she had no way of saying it.

She couldn't guess what nightmare could be so terrifying that it almost defeated Chen Feng, leaving him wandering on the edge of collapse and determination.

After a long time, Zhong Lei said slowly: "I don't believe there is any nightmare in the world that can last a lifetime. Since your dream is a TV series, there will definitely be a finale."

Chen Feng asked back, "Why? Maybe the director is so immoral that he went to the palace to meet the saint just after filming?"

Zhong Lei shook his head, "Because you are the director, as long as you don't want to enter the palace, the story will definitely have a happy ending. All stories will have a twist, and as long as you want to pursue a perfect ending, then the nature of your nightmare will definitely be It should be a sweet dream!”

Chen Feng felt that what she said made some sense, but he was frustrated and unsure whether he, as a director, could survive to the end.

Zhong Lei suddenly said: "Let me write a song for you."

"ah?"

Chen Feng suddenly panicked. How could she suddenly start to want to write a song while we were having a good chat?

Didn’t the Seven Swords Divine Comedy be copied back?

How long has it been since?

She wants to use love to influence me?

Done!

I don't want to make any mistakes. If she comes up with a touching love song that speaks directly from the heart but has no connotation, then history will be distorted on the spot.

"Ahem, no, no, no, let's just practice the songs in the eight-note first."

"No! I'm going to write it to you now! I'm going to tell you what a sweet dream should be like! I'm going to pull you out of the nightmare right now!"

Zhong Lei banged the entry bar next to her and quickly walked towards the piano in the living room.

Chen Feng stood up and wanted to follow.

Zhong Lei turned around and pointed at the chair again, "Sit down."

Chen Feng sat down obediently.

It’s over, I can’t hold it any longer.

Something big is going to happen.

He wished he could hang himself, so he could be so melancholic when he had nothing to do.

Now it's better, something big happened to those who seek benevolence and gain benevolence.

Over there, Zhong Lei has begun to close her eyes and relax, not knowing whether she is composing the rhyme or composing the lyrics.

Ten minutes passed.

Zhong Lei was still closing her eyes to rest.

Chen Feng was at a loss.

He stood up.

Zhong Lei opened her eyes suddenly, "Sit down."

Chen Feng sat up straight again, pressed his hands on his knees, and closed his thighs tightly. He was a little anxious, but as a professional player, he could withstand it.

Zhong Lei over there has already begun to take out a notebook and write on it.

Chen Feng thought to himself, it looks like the lyrics have come out.

At this time, he was actually more nervous than when he faced the invader battleship. It was like some gambling man with a monthly salary of 1,000 who bought a super double of the football lottery. He guessed all the first thirteen games, and the last game was a draw, with both sides zero. The feeling of entering injury time from zero.

Next, Zhong Lei's fingers began to jingle on the piano.

Chen Feng could not sit still. He crossed his legs and sometimes switched his left leg to his right. He could not calm down.

Half nervous, half suppressed.

After another ten minutes passed, Zhong Lei breathed a long sigh of relief and whispered: "Okay!"

Chen Feng asked: "Has it been written? What's the name of the song?"

Zhong Lei grinned and said, "Now let me invite Master Chen Feng to appreciate the new work that I just completed, "Sleepwalking Virgo"."

"What!"

Chen Feng was stunned on the spot.

He knew this song too well.

In the previous timeline, after completing "Morning Wind", Zhong Lei completed a total of six songs in addition to "You Think of Me Absent", which she composed before her death.

The remaining five songs are the two's wedding song "Hope of Life", as well as "Sleepwalking Virgo", which was born in the same month, and the following "Chasing the Wind", "Continue Again in the Next Life", and "No Regrets in This Life".

It seems that the proportion of love songs written for him is slightly higher, and Chen Feng feels a little stiff about this. Fortunately, Zhong Lei is someone who has pursuit after all, and has not done anything too low-key. The overall level of these six songs is comparable to that of Seven Swords. The Divine Comedy is pretty much the same, so that’s not a big problem.

But in fact, Chen Feng didn't like her writing songs for him like this.

Among these six songs, "Sleepwalking in Virgo", which is full of imagination, and "You Are Missing Me Absent", which is the most accurate and irresistible in terms of emotion, are his favorites.

So after returning this time, Chen Feng originally planned to leave her only "You Miss Me Absent" at most, and simply sold the other books to Lu Wei or Chen Li, He Jiaqi and others to see if he could get Zhong Lei's creative direction back. to the right track as he hoped.

Unexpectedly, people are not as good as God. He was just trying to be cute. Zhong Lei did it when she thought of it, so she wrote the song "Sleepwalking Virgo" which should have been written after she got married, when she was completely relaxed and full of hope for her future life. 》It was squeezed out in advance.

This is good, her inspiration has also learned well, she is completely unreasonable, she just comes as she says, and she doesn't give her a chance to copy the song at all.

Those who ride on other people's faces and copy singers will eventually suffer retribution, and they will be cut off from singing songs.

Not sure if this was good news or bad news, Chen Feng immediately had new worries.

Her state of mind and level this time are definitely different from the previous timeline, but don't let her favorite song completely change.

Over there, Zhong Lei had already started to play, and her smart, white and slender fingers were like ten playful and cute elves jumping around on the keys.

Like the crisp sound of a piano rippling from a mountain stream, it hits your face with an elegant and fairy-like charm.

Only a moment's prelude brings people's thinking into the mysterious and incomprehensible space of the universe.

Chen Feng was stunned at first, and then fell into trance.

It tastes the same, but seems to be slightly different.

Compared with the previous version of "Sleepwalking in Virgo", Zhong Lei's fingering on the piano is more erratic, unpredictable and full of spirituality.

The creations of different age groups will always unconsciously bear the traces of time.

Zhong Lei, who is now 21 years old, is a full 40 years younger than the 61-year-old she wrote this song in the previous timeline.

Perhaps she is not as proficient in the fine craftsmanship, but the girl has more aura, which is more in line with the original charm of "Sleeping in Andromeda".

With Chen Feng's current tasting ability, he could taste the food in just a moment.

Not only did it not go astray, it actually improved in advance.

He couldn't help feeling emotional and intoxicated at the same time.

After the prelude, Zhong Lei hummed softly in a low voice.

Chen Feng was shocked again. The lyrics were different and he became more confident.

She no longer used conjecture and speculation to describe the starry sky. Her words became more conclusive, and her imagination became bolder.

It was surging confidence and absolute freedom.

The light voice at its peak was like an orchid in the empty valley, as if it was about to fly out of the body with Chen Feng's soul.

Chen Feng didn't resist at all and took the initiative to get involved.

As the singing becomes louder and the turns and pitch changes become more complex and varied, the performer closes his eyes and plays and sings.

The listener's thinking is activated to the extreme, as if he has become an elf traveling through time and space, wandering in the vast and mysterious starry sky.

Sometimes overlooking the Milky Way, sometimes stepping on the stars, sometimes being mesmerized by the brilliant star rings, sometimes chasing behind the brilliant comets, sometimes playing in the magnificent stream of light when the red giant explodes...

Then it flew further, drifted out of the Milky Way, and went to the Local Galaxy Group composed of the Andromeda Galaxy, the Magellanic Clouds, etc.

This is not the end, just a new beginning.

She ran towards the Virgo Supercluster, the altitude from which the song is named.

As the space is continuously enlarged, one after another completely different and mysterious stars are depicted.

Some incredible wonders of the universe were sung softly by her lyrics.

But her pace did not stop at the Virgo Supercluster. At the end of the song, she set her sights on the Laniakea Supercluster.

The singing stopped, but her universe did not end. It only left a lingering lingering sound in people's hearts. It lasted for a long time and still inspired people to take the initiative to imagine.

This is how the universe is conceived in the artist's mind.

There is no need to think about science, I just want to show you how beautiful the universe is.

She just wants you, a person living on earth, to see the endless sky in her heart.

Chen Feng was completely dumbfounded.

Zhong Lei has never deliberately pursued knowledge.

She devoted 99% of her talents to music, and perhaps she only had the scientific literacy of an ordinary person.

But this time, the wonders of the universe that she describes in "Sleepwalking in Virgo" seem simple and somewhat idealistic, which are quite similar to many phenomena that can only be captured by the super telescopes of the 31st century.

She literally "sees" the universe.

Others don't know it, but Chen Feng knows it.

He had to be shocked.

The way he looked at Zhong Lei was a bit like looking at a god.

It exploded.

He had imagined before that there were no limits to human imagination.

But he thought he would never find conclusive evidence.

Now he knew, the evidence was right in front of him.

Are you afraid you are a monster?

In fact, I had decided on the title of the song "Sleepwalking Virgo" as early as the beginning of Chen Feng's seventh time travel. But I forgot to write it down, and now I realize that I missed a blood praise foreshadowing. I feel like I have lost ten thousand yuan, and I feel uncomfortable all over.