I Am In Love with Myself

In the afternoon, Anmu still had a plane. It was only one morning. Jian Yixi cherished it very much. He didn't say anything disappointing, but only said that he was happy.

It's just that when they walked under the ginkgo that came out of the wall at the beginning, looking at the tree with dead branches, remembering that An Mu had said that they would take her to see the golden autumn, they couldn't help but feel a little sad.

This is like a metaphor for the relationship between her and An Mu. At the end of the spring, there were green branches, but now it is spring, but it is cold, with dead branches and leaves.

Jane smiled at An Mu with the spirit of fighting.

"It is said that I will take me to see Ginkgo in the autumn. You owe me another promise. I will have to wait for you to pay it back, otherwise I will lose a lot."

An Mu picked up a dead leaf on the ground. The leaf after the winter was very fragile, and it shattered as soon as it was pinched. An Mu lightly squeezed it with his fingertips and crushed it. Watching the broken pieces fly away with the wind, his eyes are far away, and he doesn't say a word. Fadi led her to Yihexuan.

The little cub of the Yihexuan guard with claws lay leisurely on the window sill to bask in the sun. It was really good for face, and he could actually see it as soon as he came.

The two of them surrounded the cat, it was really like a little promise to wait on Lafayette, taking pictures and admiring the cat, it was a joy.

Before leaving, An Mu grabbed Jian Yixi and took a photo of the two and a cat.

An Mu sent the photo to Jian Yixi with a sentence.

"Little Cub's life is the deadline agreed upon by me and you. Before I return to school, if Cub is still alive and kicking, I will honor the agreement. If not, the agreement will be invalidated."

Jian Yixi was still enjoying the group photo happily, but when she heard this, she raised her head in surprise.

"Why should our destiny be handed over to others?"

"Little Cub is not someone else."

"Stop the cat? Is this the point?"

Jane pulled her by with a frown, walked straight to the little cub, leaned over and pointed at An Mu at the little cub.

"This person's heart is so bad, she cursed you to die early, bit her!"

An Mu said speechlessly: "Can't it be hoped that it will live a hundred years?"

"You treat me as a three-year-old? A three-year-old is not easy to be fooled now, right?"

An Mu wants to break the contract, and Jian Yixi knows it better. Although she can’t understand why An Mu likes the little cub so much, why she still said such unlucky words, but she understands that An Mu can say such things, indicating that she has already As I know, the little cub is probably...lived soon.

An Mu lowered her eyes, a light shadow under her long eyelashes.

"This is my final concession. If you agree, then you agree. If you don't agree, the agreement will be directly invalidated."

Jian Yixi raised his head and looked at the red-colored gallery ceiling. She wanted to learn from Mao Mao and enliven the atmosphere, but after all, it wasn't Mao Mao. If she couldn't make Mao Mao's weirdness, it made the atmosphere even more sad.

"No wonder people say that grandpa owes the debt and grandson is owed. You owe me and you are so arrogant. You have justified you for unilateral breach of contract?"

After sniffing, Jian Yixi, who wanted to laugh but didn't laugh, could only barely control herself not to cry.

"I don't agree, no matter what you say, I won't agree."

"If you don't agree, you have to agree."

An Mu pursed her lips. She knew that she shouldn't use this despicable method, but this was already the gentlest refusal method she could think of.

The little cub will not survive the twelfth lunar month. Even if everything goes well, Dad An will have to be treated for one and a half years. Coupled with recuperation, she is unlikely to return to school within two years. This is the most optimistic consideration. Maybe she will be ten years old. Can't go back to school for 20 years.

An Mu increased his tone and said, "It doesn't matter if you agree or not, that's how it is done."

Jian Yixi also increased his tone: "Then I don't care if you agree or not. Anyway, I will wait for you. When you graduate, you will not come. I will go to France to find you and fulfill the agreement in France."

"An Mu, is it okay for you to be reasonable? Who the **** is it? You break the contract when you break the contract, and you don't respect my opinion at all. Now you still say I'm wayward?

Anyway, I don’t agree. The agreement is an agreement. When encountering force majeure, it can be postponed, but the agreement cannot be broken!

All in all, in short, I still said that, even if you say it, say it a thousand times and ten thousand times! I will not agree! "

An Mu said, "Don't get excited."

Jane Yixi's eyes were flushed with red, tears hung in her eyes and did not fall, as if she was silently accusing her of her lack of faith.

No, that's not right, she has never been messed up, where does the chaos come from and the end is abandoned?

An Mu's mind is confused, and when she meets Jian Yixi's stubborn and sad eyes, she has a mess in her mind. She can't think of any tricks and tricks. She doesn't want to calculate Jian Yixi, nor does she want to continue this unnecessary argument. , After all, time and distance can change everything, so why bother.

But she absolutely cannot say agreeing to Jian Yixi to wait for her, she can't let Jian Yixi be bound by the agreement.

The trip to the Forbidden City ended up unhappy.

Jane escorted her to the airport with the spirit of fighting, and watched her thin figure walk towards the boarding gate again, but no longer the stable mood that was at the beginning.

When An Mu was sent away, at least she knew that An Mu would definitely come back after the New Year, and she could see her no matter whether it was a suspension of school or attending school.

But now, she didn't know the year and month of goodbye.

Especially, An Mu did not promise to fulfill his promise until the end.

Waiting is not terrible, what is terrible is wishful thinking.

If her waiting seemed to An Mu to be irritable and stressful, what meaning does her persistence have? Just to move yourself?

Poor, ridiculous and ironic.

Even if you want to move yourself, you should do it without increasing An Mu's psychological burden, otherwise it will be selfish, and no matter how you use love to beautify it, it will be vain.

Jian Yixi closed her eyes, wiped off the unobservable wet marks on the corners of her eyes, and suddenly walked two steps tightly and shouted at An Mu: "An Mu! I have something to say, you come out first!"

An Mu paused, hesitated, and finally squeezed out of the team and walked to her to stand still.

Jian Yixi looked down at her. I don't know when she started, she needs to lower her eyes to look at An Mu. An Mu seems to be more and more different from the memory, not just her height.

In my memory, An Mu is fearless and strong and reliable. He dares to speak up when encountering injustices. Whether you are the director or the principal, An Mu is fearless. As long as there is An Mu, it seems that the sky is falling.

But now An Mu, the whole person has become weak and slender, with such a thin wrist, such a slender figure, and even long hair is soft as a cloud, although it is still strong and reliable, but it is no longer fearless, such as An Mu is afraid of Jian's family, for example, An Mu is afraid of eating Black Forest cake.

These tiny things have changed Jian Yixi's cognition like a thread, allowing her to understand An Mu more deeply, no longer just looking at the appearance.

An Mu is still that An Mu, but it is no longer that An Mu either.

The past An Mu sheltered her from wind and rain, but now An Mu makes her want to be protected in her arms.

Even if she is still weak and does not have enough ability to protect An Mu, she will try to make herself strong and will do her best to protect her.

At least, she will not let herself be the culprit for hurting An Mu.

Jian Yixi kept looking at An Mu, her half-closed beautiful eyes filled with mist. She wanted to take another look, but she knew there was no time.

"You... kiss me, I promise not to wait for you."

An Mu opened her eyes slightly, and the tip of her eyelashes quivered slightly, "You said...what?"

Jian Yixi sniffed, trying to keep tears from falling, her lips twitched, her hair floating on the side of her face, she smiled dazedly and beautifully.

"Do you listen hard at such a young age? I said kiss me once, just once, as long as you kiss, I will...not wait for you."

As if afraid that An Mu would kiss her on her forehead, Jian Yixi pointed her lips up, her eyes were misty and she was smiling, but she was full of sadness and desolation.

An Mu hesitated, and asked again uncertainly: "Are you serious?"

Whether it’s real or fake, An Mu doesn’t know when he will come back anyway. It’s better to be able to let Jian Yixi down with a kiss, even if you can’t completely let it down, it’s a little bit to let it go. There is no harm.

An Mu glanced around. Although there were a lot of people in the waiting hall, they were walking in a hurry, waiting to lower their heads to play with their phones or talk with friends, but no one paid attention to them.

An Mu retracted her gaze and curled her fingers slightly. She has always acted decisively, and this time is no exception. She made up her mind in just a second. She raised her head and gently touched Jian Yixi’s lips. With just one click, the dragon touched the water and immediately withdrew.

"Well, I kissed, you remember to keep your promise."

Jian Yixi pursed her lips, her pink lips were slightly pale, the moment she let go, the blood returned to the cage, contrary to her pale face, her lips were extraordinarily delicate, as if the flash of kisses dyed red Like her lips.

Obviously the kiss was so fast as an illusion, she was hardly sure if she had actually kissed.

Why are you so stingy? Is it okay to kiss for a second? Can't you be a little more generous to her?

Jian Yixi’s soft white face was distorted. She clearly wanted to laugh, but it was more ugly than crying. His red eyes were steaming with sad tears, and he choked: "What should I do? Less than 10. Second kiss doesn’t count. Have you forgotten your own rules?"

An Mu couldn't bear to look at her pear blossom with rain, and cast his eyes down.

"I set it to be no more than 10 seconds, and that has been invalidated. You can't say nothing."

"I didn't want to talk without believing, so I wouldn't be like you, always saying that others are children, but in the end, I'm self-willed, I just think... forget it."

Before An Mu could react to the meaning of "Forget it", the back of the waist was suddenly caught, the back of the head was also buckled, the black shadow on his face was covered, and the lips were suddenly blocked.

"Um! Put... um... open!"

-Are you crazy? so many people! Are you afraid of being photographed? !

Even if it's just ordinary people, it is still very noticeable to kiss openly at the airport where people come and go, especially the two are of the same **** with good looks.

An Mu didn't dare to push it too far, for fear that it would be more noticeable, but Jian Yixi had to take it an inch, as if she couldn't wait to swallow her in one bite, let her be with herself forever, so that she could never be indifferent to her .

An Mu's refusal hand gradually stopped, and the corners of her lips tasted the taste of salty tears, as if spreading from the depths of Jian Yixi's soul, salty with bitterness, and bitterness with unspeakable sadness.

I avoided the Jane family, got admitted to the university of dreams, and went around a long way. I thought I could finally be happy in this life, but I didn't expect that it was me who hurt me in the end...

Sorry, Jian Yixi...

I can't love you...

I am sorry……

The author has something to say: This chapter was originally intended to be used yesterday to thank Shallow Water for the addition, but it was temporarily changed to today's update...

because……

When I wrote about 2500 yesterday, my dad suddenly told me that I was sent to the community as a volunteer to assist in the census...

I am a party member and I am proud! Where do I need to move~!

Of course, the most important thing is that I am a well-known family squatting in the community...

Everyone thinks I am very free...

But I am not, I am really not, I am so busy as a dog! Busier than social animals, there are no rest days 365 days a year, o(╥﹏╥)o

My gratitude can only be pushed back

ps. Originally this month, I planned to prepare a new article on March, but it turned out...

Hey, let's not talk about it, if you talk too much, it will be tears QAQ