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Chapter 343 Chapter 341 · "If the day does not appear"

Su Mingan looked down at Elras below: "I need to protect Garder, that's all. It seems that you, the soul hunting leader, are unwilling to let people go, so I can only do the opposite."

For Su Ming'an, the soul hunting camp just made it more convenient to kill the soul clan.

If he was prevented from doing S-level missions, then it would be a good idea to change sides.

"Stop the flames on Xie Lude's body." Su Mingan said.

Elras laughed miserably, opened his palms, and the flames on Sherrod's body disappeared in an instant.

The screams stopped and Sherrod fell to the ground and passed out.

Su Mingan looked around.

The deserted church, the unconscious soul hunter, and the helpless soul hunter leader Elras.

No one but Sherrod knew what Elras would die of.

He was just about to give the order to kill the other party when Sevia spoke up:

"Father, Elras cannot die for the time being."

"Why?" Su Mingan turned around.

"In Praia, there is a secret that only those of us in the ruling class know. That is... the principle of 'reciprocity' that I once told you." Sevia said: "It's strange. Over the past few decades, , once there is a big crisis in one of the soul clan or the soul hunting camp, the other side will also be inexplicably in crisis. In other words, once one of the parties suffers a loss, it will soon make up for it... This has led to the fact that both of us have been In a stalemate, no one can do anything."

"..."

"So, once you kill Elras, maybe a new and stronger leader will appear soon on the soul hunter side." Sevia said: "So, I think, instead of letting Elras die, , it is better to keep him alive. In case something happens that is beyond our control."

Listening to his words, Su Mingan fell into thinking.

It was not that he was hesitating whether to kill Elras, but the principle of "reciprocity" mentioned by Sevia reminded him of a very wonderful thing.

The more he thought about it, the more he realized something.

"And, father, I have to remind you one thing." Sevia glanced at the old lady next to him: "This human woman is a failed product of the human experiment transformation of Yunshang Church. If you want to protect her, then It is tantamount to challenging the dignity of Yunshang Church, and may face the wrath of God..."

"Which god can come to Praia?" Su Mingan asked.

"None so far." Sevia said: "But I heard that the Pope has a magic to communicate with the gods. And if your final choice is to go to Yunshang City, you must not offend that god... "

Su Mingan also thought of this.

He frowned, lost in thought.

But at this moment, an old voice slowly came over:

"...Forget it, young man."

Su Mingan turned his head.

Beside, the white-haired old lady was watching him.

"You don't have to do this for me." She said softly: "Although I don't know why you can order the leader of the Soul Clan, you are a good young man. From what I have seen, you should have a bright future, why do you have to do it for me? An old guy, give up everything your grandpa ran."

"Su Lin doesn't care about these reputations." Su Ming'an said.

The old lady grinned.

Her teeth are very neat and white, and she doesn't look like an elderly person who is about to lose all her teeth.

This reminded Su Mingan of the first time he met her.

At that time, when she smiled, she also showed a row of neat teeth, like a middle-aged person.

...Maybe from that time, there were signs that she was no ordinary human being.

She smiled, walked to him with trembling steps, and held his hand.

"Maybe your grandfather doesn't care." She said, "But what about Xie Lude? He is an excellent Knight of Light. What did he do wrong?"

Su Mingan understands this.

If Elras died here, then Sherrod with him would definitely arouse suspicion.

"Xie Lude... I grew up seeing him. He is a good boy." She said, and her skinny hand with veins like earthworms covered Su Ming'an's hand.

Under the dazzling golden light, the old man looked thin and haggard.

Her voice is still kind and gentle, like a gurgling stream, and it seems that it has not changed from beginning to end:

"Xie Lu, he has been clamoring to become a church knight since he was a child.

"I watched him train, I watched him study, I watched him get up early in the morning to run and swim, I watched him grow taller... He has no parents, the church is his home, and he has been proud to be a knight all his life. , regards honor as his life...

If it hadn't happened tonight, he would have accepted the royal city's honorary selection after the sea feast, and even been promoted to the honorary knight of the royal city... This was his lifelong goal.

He made a mistake this evening, and I made a mistake with him. Now, for the sake of your future, I can't make any more mistakes..."

…

"What's wrong with fighting for your own survival?" Su Mingan responded to her words.

The old lady arched her eyebrows.

She smiled happily, as if she had seen an excellent child.

"But it's no longer necessary, children," she said. "You don't have to exhaust your career for someone whose life is at its end."

...life comes to an end?

Su Ming settled for a moment.

Then, he looked at Elras on the ground.

"Su Lin." Ellas looked at him calmly: "Why do you think we use the word 'recycle' to her?"

……Recycle.

The word "recycling" is used only for items that have reached the end of their useful life and are no longer usable.

And for a life...

Su Ming'an looked at the old lady in front of him, who was as thin as a piece of paper.

"I should have died a long time ago. I know my illness well."

She said: "It's just that I thought that I had to wait until my old man came back... before I took the initiative to accept this kind of experiment.

The other experimental subjects were all strong prisoners... but they all died. Only I, a thin failure, survived. Although I didn't get the power of the soul clan... it was enough to extend my lifespan.

But now, the life span that was barely extended must come to an end.

Just yesterday, the old man sent a message telling me that I didn't have to wait for him.

I have made an appointment with him before. If he still can't come down when he reaches the end of his life, just tell me. Now it seems...he is probably already waiting for me over there.

I looked at it, Lele was getting older, I was getting old, I couldn’t do the work, and I couldn’t see the needle clearly. Jiajia’s illness also required subsidized resources from Soul Hunter. Rather than letting me continue to live, letting my whole family suffer with me, and letting the soul hunters be wary of me... it's better to just let me go, so that I can meet the old man in the sky..."

She raised her head, her cloudy eyes seemed to have a bright luster like silk:

"In this life... I have seen the prosperity of Praia. I have seen it for so many years. Jiajia and Lele are both grown up. I have no regrets. Child of Su Lin's family, you are a good young man, and so is the child Xie Lude. Don't worry about me anymore, just do what you should do.

… As people get older, it’s almost time to leave. "

"There is no right or wrong to go." Su Mingan said: "No one should die at a certain age."

Garder reminded him of his grandmother, who died when he was four.

At that time, grandma was also holding his hand, lying on the hospital bed, and talking to him in a low voice.

She told him to be obedient, to be good, and to tolerate his mother. She said that her mother was just angry outside, so she could just tolerate it. From now on, without her protecting him and his father being outside all the time, he would try to hide in his room as much as possible.

He remembered, and kept enduring it, enduring that woman, until he finally couldn't bear it anymore.

...But before he was four years old, he always remembered the way his grandma protected him behind her, gave him sweets, and told him to go back to his room.

In front of him, Garder, whose face was covered with age spots, was speaking softly to him.

In his pocket, there was a bag of uneaten rice cake candies.

"Do you remember what I said, child?" She said softly: "You don't have to pursue anything in this life, as long as you can reflect on this life and not be ashamed.

People will get answers to their questions in this life.

My answer was already waiting, and he made sure I didn’t have to wait any longer.

What about you...have you found your answer, Sherrod's answer? "

…

Su Mingan gradually thought about it.

At that time, it was clear that Xie Lude and Garder had agreed on a time to leave, so why did Garder deliberately keep him chatting?

The answer is simple.

No one forced her to chat with him.

...It's just because she doesn't want to leave.

He remembered what she had said.

…

[Young man, don’t be afraid, you are still young and there is still a long way to go. Even if you will see a lot of darkness and unfairness in the world along the way, you must prioritize protecting yourself. 】

…

[Soul Hunting is not a place that cannibalize people. The Royal City also has their own considerations. They cannot blindly blind their eyes and rashly fight against injustice...Only when you stand up, stand high, and see far, can you understand that some things will not be the same. So simple. 】

…

[Su Lin, child of the Su Lin family... you are a good young man, you have become a soul hunter, and you will realize your dream. 】

…

He already understands.

As early as that time, when she saw the Bright Knight wandering outside and Su Ming'an, she had already been prepared.

When she knew that he wanted to become a soul hunter, she specifically said these words, asking him to think more about it so that he could be mentally prepared.

This way, he wouldn't get excited and do something after learning about her death later.

...Even to a stranger who has just returned from outside, she can still be considerate to this extent. I would rather say such a long paragraph to take care of his future.

The old lady is such a gentle person.

She clearly did nothing wrong.

"...You came back on your own initiative, right?" Su Mingan looked at her.

Facing his gaze, Garder nodded slowly.

No one forced her.

There was no soul hunter who got on the boat and insisted on pulling her off. Because her son was a sacrificed soul hunter, even if she chose to escape, the soul hunters would reluctantly accept it for the sake of her son.

...She took the initiative to come here after thinking about Xie Lude's future, thinking about his future, and thinking about the price he paid to send her away.

Maybe she had promised Xie Rude that she would get on the ship, and she would insist on living even if she left her hometown.

But after receiving the letter on the spur of the moment, she didn't wait any longer.

...She couldn't wait any longer.

...She came back on her own initiative.

…

"Recycle me." She said: "Take out the mutated soul heart from my chest and give this to the Pope. Xie Lude's resume will not be stained. Lele and Jiajia will probably not be stained either. I'll be blamed. They still have a future, and they shouldn't be forced to leave Praia and wander on the sea...

Su Lin's child... you are a good young man, and the gods will not blame you.

Please help me. "

Finish this sentence.

She held the photo in her hand and suddenly lowered her head.

——She kissed the faceless man wearing a soul hunter uniform.

Silver threads floated on the side of her face, like frost formed from a night of winter snow, brushing against the brown spots on her face. The moment she closed her eyes, her expression became extremely gentle, like a little girl who had just fallen in love.

The kiss was extremely light.

Like snow-capped mountains melting into water, morning dew rolling down, dragonflies touching the water, like believers kissing the Bible.

After a moment, she raised her eyes, and her lips slowly separated from the photo.

Years settled in her eyes, locking in a long time.

The white eyes were filled with water, as clear and bright as the sea and the sky.

Under her eyes, there were a pair of dark bags, as if she was holding long-lost tears.

…

...This is the best ending that "everyone is happy with" for her.

…

[When people arrange their own death, what awaits them is an extremely stable sense of departure. 】

[——As Heidegger said, living toward death. 】

[Even that death is still unknown to them. 】

…

If day does not appear,

She should have been used to patience and waiting.

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